Ever want to just leave?

I've had one of those weeks.  I just want to sell off about 90% of my stuff, find some low census tropical island, buy a house there and move.  No job, no stress just warm sandy beach, ocean waves, hubby and my pets.   I mean to the point I was looking at places to move to online lol.  

Heck at this point, I just want to sell my house, and move someplace new so there would be more opportunities for RN work.  I'd love to work in an ICU, but well, I don't want to have to drive 80 min one way to have that opportunity. Esp not in the winter.  That would SUCK!  But it was always a dream of mine when I went to nursing school to work in an ICU, and here I am 21 years later, and still no ICU job. Sigh.  Sometimes small town living sucks.  Yes, they are great things about being from and living in a small town, but man opportunities is not one of them.    I've literally thought "well how bad would it be if I was part-time there"  Um, slightly less driving lol.   But maybe it would be worth it.

Anyone want to build a really big hospital about 30 min or less from my house?  One with a dedicated ICU, OB, med surg, and ortho floors?   I'd go work in Des Moines to get lots of experience so I could work ICU after you get it built!


So here I am, looking at places to live in Costa Rica lol.  I have enough makeup for 5 people, so I could do with less and do with buying less  Looks like depending on where you live the temps are just were I like them, low 80s for highs, 60s for lows.  Affordable, friendly to Americans, good health care.  Gee, why am I still here??? LOL.

This is my one night after 4 in a row.  Man, I'm sick of working.  I want to cut back to part-time so bad. I'm tired of being tired.   And I'm tired of feeling frustrated about things I don't seem to have control over.   Its draining on a person.   And I do feel a little drained.

Maybe I just need to take a vacation.   Oh, I had a little more than a week off in May but really that was it in 2 years.  But right now, I can't afford to take a vacation lol. I can't afford the time off.  Isn't that a thing.  I'd love to have about 7 days off in a row, but I can't afford not to work.  Welcome to Mid Income USA.

Now I'm on a website for "the Best Places to Retire in 2017"  Malta looks good now too lol.

Time to make new goals, and plan how I'm going to get there

And not just fitness goals.  But what I want to do in life goals.  I have things I want but I need to nail them down and make them actual goals rather than just "wouldn't it be nice" things.
I want to eventually go down to part time, so I need to make goals on how to get to part time work and make enough money to have the extras I have now.
I want to reassess my fitness goals, make them more specific and make actual plans on how to get there, and stick to that plan.

I want my You Tube channel to get at least 100 subscribers and to get 50 views on new videos I put u by the time its up for a week.    Not quite sure how to plan for that lol other than keep making videos, and keep putting them out there on social media and maybe just maybe I'll get to 100 subscribers at the end of the year.  I'm just under 70, so I'm growing ever so slowly.

I also have travel goals.  I want to go to London someday.  And to Rome, and Athens.  So I need to make this a goal, and start making plans on how to save up money to go there, and then do it.  I want to do it before I get to old to walk around everywhere!

I've been really slacking off my fitness.  Been just so unmotivated.  I don't know why. Just am.   I can't figure out what lifting program to do, when to start, how to keep going.  And my eating has just dissolved into CRAP. I feel so bloated and just don't feel good about it at all. Maybe I'll just start really really slowly.  Count calories for a week just to see where I'm at.  And move on from there.  Figuring out what calories I need to slowly lose fat and build muscle, and do no more for a couple weeks.

I'm going to wash the drapes tonight, so maybe while I wait for them to get done I'll get out a notebook and start making out some goals and plans.   I need to really make obtainable goals, and set out plans on how to reach those goals. And maybe set up rewards for obtaining these goals.

Yep, that's what I'm going to do.  Set up goals, make out plans, and set up some rewards.

I hate unboxing videos, there I said it!

I really do.  I hate when the big makeup You Tubers either show off all the PR they get on You Tube, snapchat or Instagram.   It pisses me off!   Cause here I am, trying to get my hands  on some popular eye shadow palette, sometimes multiple times, and they are out!  But oh 50, or more You Tubers get free ones.  Great.   Maybe they wouldn't be sold out if they didn't send out all that PR.  

So I hate watching them unbox all their PR, esp when I know there is something in there I would really like to have, and can't get cause well, they ran out due to PR being given out to a whole bunch of "influencers" on You Tube.  

I know this is an unpopular opinion, or so it seems.  But well, I just get irritated that while I'm clicking away to try to get one palette that then gets sold out before I can, more than once, some You Tuber gets theirs for free. 

So when I see the PR unboxing, I just skip it.  Easy to do on You Tube but a little less easy on Snapchat lol.  And I know 99% of the PR is done to hype out products that we don't need to have hyped up.  I mean really?  Did the Jac Hill Morphe palette need to be hyped up by the You Tubers?  Um, NO!  But hype it they did and sent out a whole bunch of freebies while those of us who would gladly pay to get it, can't cause it's "sold out"   I've about decided I don't want it anymore.  You're loss Morphe!

Rant over for today.