Busy Thanksgiving week and a fitness revelation.

First of course, came work.  Worked Mon, Tue, and Wed nights, so I got off work about 6:15am Thur morning.  Actually, it was easier work than usual, cause the doctors try hard to clean house, so to speak, meaning getting people home for the holiday if possible.  No scheduled surgeries were on tap, so that cuts down on the patient list, and the couple people that might have stayed, well, they went home cause who the heck wants to be in the hospital for any major holiday?

Of course, I slept some on Thur, then woke up and headed to my sister's for dinner.  Hubby and our youngest were already there, along with other members of my family. Had a great meal!  And it was nice to see everyone.  After a couple hours, headed home, and took a nap.  Thought I'd sleep about 20 mins but that turned into more than an hour.  Guess I was tired.

Fri, I went to Crossfit and tried to burn off a little of Thanksgiving.  Here's the WOD we all did.

Kind of hard to see, but it was a Hero WOD, meaning a WOD ( aka workout) that honors people Crossfit considers heros.  Military who were killed in combat who were Crossfitters.  Police killed in duty who were Crossfitters.  This on was honoring a police member killed. Its a combo of his two favorite workouts.  A lot of us wore blue to honor all our police members everywhere.

I've also had a small revelation.  I found a new You Tube channel to watch  Dr Sara Solomon. She's a dentist who was also a fitness competitor.  Rather successful too I think.  Anyway, about a year ago, she went from training for pure aesthetics to training for getting fitter, getting better at stuff like pullups, running, that sort of thing.  I've watched her videos for a couple weeks now, and its really got me to thinking.  I've been only working out to lose weight.  Not for anything else, and its really not gotten me much of anything.   But the first time I started Crossfit, I was concentrating on getting better at things like deadlifts, pushups, almost getting my first pullup, and I lost weight and was starting to get fitter.

So why am I not doing this now?  Why am I not just putting my focus on just getting fitter?  Trying to improve my squat form, increase the weights I lift. Run faster, or run at all lol.  

So I'm working on switching my thinking that I'm training. I'm  working towards just getting fitter.  I want to run faster and longer.  I want to lift heavier.  I want to be a fitter person.  So I need to train.  And I need to eat to fuel my training. Ok, so that will have to wait until next week lol.  But I've started working at home to get fitter. I have a pullup bar rigged up, ok, so its my olympic bar set up high, but it works.  I've worked on squat form.  Ab mat sit ups. Snatch form.  Overhead squats.  If I can perfect form at home, my workouts will get better.

I think I'm going to look towards getting a treadmill so I can work on running at home during the winter.  I'm going to use my rower and spin bike to improve my cardio capacity too.  I'm going to be a fit person!

What a great day!

I'm finally getting to string together 3 nights off!   Amen and hallelujah!  I managed to catch up on sleep yesterday.   Finally.  Felt great.  Amazing how much better you feel when you are not just tired.

Went to a Mary Kay party last night.  And if you don't think I didn't order stuff, you'd be wrong.  Ordered some new foundation, which I will be reviewing after I get it.  Ordered some hand stuff too, cause I need help keeping my hands and cuticles from being all dry and cracked at work.  You put alcohol gel on about a million times in 12 hours and see if your hands don't dry and crack.

Today we meaning hubby and I, went to Des Moines.  Hit the mall. I got 2 pair of booties and an ab mat.   Ok, I hear you asking "WTF is and ab mat"  Well, this is an ab mat.

You put it behind your back and do sit ups.  The best way is to have your feet in a butterfly position for them.  Like this 

Works the abs great!  Cause I need NEED to supplement what I do in Crossfit with stuff I can do at home.  I need to workout more cause well I'm sick of being fat and tired. 

We also went to Costco, and was surprised to not spend more than $100.  Made up for it getting groceries.  Stocked up on fruit and veggies.  Need to eat more of them.  Period!

Filming a review of the Fiona Stiles foundation I've wanted to review for a couple weeks or more. I think this one will finally come out ok. I've used it a few times, and really like it. 

Gonna have to cut this short.  My lap dog Frodo decided to jump up on my lap and sleep on my keyboard.  Do you know how hard it is to type with a dog in the way?  Let me tell you, its hard lol.

I need better camera equipment, period

So, when I started my You Tube channel, I got a rather cheap camcorder.    Now it works ok.  But I've noticed during some filmings, most I've scrubbed, I look redder than my hair.  I mean its horrible.  Others I look ok.   So I got out my old camera and I've filmed some on it, but its a few years old, and well, it shows.  The picture isn't good, and when I wear a bright colored eye shadow, it just simply doesn't show up. 

So, I need better equipment, period.  A nicer camera, and I'd like to get better lights for when I film.  I'm thinking Christmas presents!!!   Been researching some cameras, and have a few I'm gonna look more into.

Went to Des Moines today. Picked up a couple new outfits, not scrubs amazing enough.  And a couple things at Sephora, of course lol. This is one of the things I got today.

I'll have to really give it a good try over the next few days.  I'll let you know what I think.

I also picked this up:

I put a little on the back of my hand and not only did it seem like it has good coverage, it was nice and creamy. 

So, cause my video I filmed today has me looking kind of crappy, and really red, I'm gonna film another and hope to get it up tomorrow. A "Bedtime skin care routine" video.  I'll use my older camera, cause I won't be showing bright vivid colors, so it won't matter as much.

So off to do more camera research.  I want to find one that's less than $500.  I think the quality of videos will be so much better with a better camera set up.

So I guess its been a few days

Been busy at work, or attempting to catch up on sleep.  I had a 48hr period of time where I only got a total of 9 hours of sleep.  So I've just simply been just to freaking tired to really care about blogging lol  Sorry. 

I'm going around tonight all over the Sephora website. I'm going to try a couple new things for skin care.  While I'm still trying to find my favorite couple foundations, it simply won't matter if my skin sucks.  And well, I'm vein enough to want to look younger as I get older.  Skin care!

So I think I'm going to get  this

OMG!  That's suck a small picture!  Anyway, its the Drunk Elephant C-Firma Day Serum, a vitamin C serum.  Ok, so I found a better picture, I hope

I also am going to buy this

Sunday Riley's Juno.  I've tried her Luna, and liked it ok.  Just want to try something else out to compare.   I'll blog about what I think after I've used them for a while.

Tomorrow I'm going to film a review of the Fiona Stiles foundation.  I've used it a few times, but have not filmed a review.  Time to do that.

Got some Colourpop in today.  I ordered the Hello Kitty stuff.  Looks like this:

I can't wait to play with them both!  I really enjoy Colourpop eyeshadows.

I finally FINALLY got to Crossfit for the first time in 2 weeks.  My work, I lost a little cardio conditioning. I'll get it back, but wow.  I sucked.  Sucked air, and just sucked lol.  But I felt so great to be back. It was AMAZING!!!

Kind of a longer post today.  WOW!  Guess I'm making up for lost time.   And now that I've got a good posting done, time to shop!  I worked extra shifts in the last couple weeks, and I'm going to get some stuff!

Just til the end of this week!

Then I'll be done with the worst of it.  The extra shifts, the classes, etc. God I hope its over.  I just want to have the days off I'm suppose to. 

I started taking St Johns Wort again.  I have found myself feeling really blah, and just irritable. Finally dawned on me that I hadn't started taking it. I usually take it starting mid Oct through Feb, sometime early March.  I get a little blah and down in the winter with the lack of sunshine.  So I"m back on it again.  To bad it takes a couple weeks to really feel the results.  To bad I didn't start it a couple weeks ago.  I'd be feeling better by now.

Going back to Methodist to job shadow in the CCU there.  On my day off of course, cause they " just couldn't get me off the floor" to get me up there.  So on my day off I have to drive 90 miles, shadow for 12-13 hours, then drive 90 miles back home.  Great.  I mean I really enjoyed it the first day I went, but it does screw up my days off.  I could have gotten my daughters wedding dress picked up today rather than going to Methodist.

Speaking of the wedding dress, my sleep will be all fucked up.  So I won't get to bed until after 10am tomorrow.  I can't sleep long cause I need to try to get to bed kind of early Fri night cause I have to get up early for me on Sat.  Yes,  8am is early when you work night shift.  Try waking up at 3am people and see if you thing its early.   Go get the dress, hope to God it doesn't take to long, cause I'd like a nap before I work all night on Sat.  I'm not really wanting to be up all fucking night without a nap. Esp when I'm going to be working.  So please please please let me get a nap in on Sat.

I'm really not looking forward to working this weekend. My daughter and her boyfriend are coming down for her birthday, and I might get to see them for an hour or two.  Great.  I hate work sometimes.  I mean I love taking care of people, for the most part, but being a nurse means working holidays, weekends, all night long, during school thing. Going to meetings on days off.  And nothing NOTHING is ever set for a good time for night shift workers.  EVER!   I guess we just don't need sleep. 

Well, its almost time to get ready for work. Gonna film a "How I do my makeup" video today. Hope to get it up tomorrow.

What a not a weekend, but at least Doctor Strange rocked

My weekend wasn't much of a weekend off.  Worked Fri into Sat, 13 hours, then drove home 90 mins.  Slept all of 4 hours.  Was exhausted on Sat, but I didn't want to sleep to much cause I needed to be able to get to bed at an almost reasonable hour to get up and teach Sunday school at the local nursing home.  I do that every month to 6 weeks.  
Then I did church.  I had not gotten to go to church in way to long.  I missed it, and felt great to get to go.

Hubby then took me to Des Moines to see Doctor Strange.  OMG!  It was so good.  I can't wait to see it again.  If you have not seen it, you need to remember to stay through all the credits. All of them.  Setting stuff up for later movies.

Back to work today and I don't want to go. I want some fucking days off where I don't have to do stuff.  Where I don't end up sleeping most of it away, where I don't have other responsibilities to take care of. 

This weekend will suck.  My daughter is coming home from collage for her birthday, and I will not get to see her much at all.  Why, cause I'll be at work or sleeping. Great.  Maybe if I'm lucky I'll see her for a couple hours the whole weekend. Not much of a time with my girl.

I'm just feeling a little bummed.  Just seems like these last few weeks work has been ruling my life and I'm not enjoying that.  I do enjoy taking care of people but really I only want to go to work, then come home and really enjoy my time off.  I really live for my time off.   I'm hoping hubby gets his 100% VA disability so I can cut back to 2 days a week.  Seems like I'm missing out on stuff cause I'm at work all the time. Or sleeping. Which is weird when I only work 3 days a week, but with all the extra classes, and meetings and such it seems like I'm there all the time.

Or maybe have my You Tube channel take off and I start making money from it lol.  Right. Don't get my hopes up lol.  Maybe in a year or two I might start making a couple hundred bucks a month from it.  Oh well.  I guess I'm going to have to get ready for work. I don't wanna but I have to do it.

Someday things will be normal

Just no anytime in the next week or two.   Today, after 3 of the longest 12 hour shifts I've worked in a while, I have to go up to Des Moines to job shadow in the ICU at Methodist.  Its for my training but man, I don't want to go.  I'm tired, I'm grumpy, and I'm just tired.  Sometimes I'm not sure management is really looking out for the nursing staff.  We just kind of get told "we'll be fine" when we're understaffed which makes me feel like a shit nurse, cause I can't do the things I want to do.  I want to do more than the basics.  The meds and assessment. I want to do stuff like back rubs, helping brush teeth, or even the  simple next step, like taking them out for walks in hallways.    But when we're understaffed, we can't do that.  But "we'll be fine"  Um, ok, but how about the patients?  Will they when the nursing staff is stressed?

I just want it to be 7am tomorrow morning, so maybe I'll get a couple days off.  Except that Sat will be me sleeping for a few hours so Sat will be a waste.  And Sun, I've got other responsibilities,  before I finally get to do something I want to do.  Go see Doctor Strange.   That's the only thing I'm really looking forward to in the next couple days.  Nothing else really.  I'm just tired.  Tired of the extra training that always takes away my time off.  God love the government and its mandates to force people to do extra training.

I'm feeling kind of whiny today.  I've got about 10 mins before I have to get ready to leave, again.  UGH!  Not a way to start a job shadow, feeling grumpy and whiny and feeling so tired.  I just want to get through this, and next week and maybe I can get back to regular days.

Should have played a video game. Maybe killing stuff would make me feel better.  I hope I can get to that tomorrow.

See you all later, and I hope that you have a better day than I seem to be having.

24 hours done, 24 hours left to go

Two more 12 hour shifts left to go this week. I just want to survive.  The last couple of nights have been very long, and hectic.  One more night, then I get one night off before another night.  Please let me survive.  And I think tonight we might be short staffed!  What fun! 

I really need to get to filming a new video.  I have a good idea of what to produce, my Yes, No and Maybe for Oct.  Have a few products I love, hated, and well, maybe they might work, maybe they won't.  I hope to get it done tomorrow.

I really don't think I slept enough today.  A couple more hours would have been nice.    Oh well.  I guess I'll just have to deal with it, and I'll be ok.

I really don't have much to say today.  Won't be much longer and I'll be getting ready for work. I hope it goes smooth today.