My goals for 2017

I have decided not to make Resolutions.  Everyone breaks them anyway, so why bother.

So I've made a few goals I will be working towards in this new year.

First, Crossfit 2-3 days a week at the box ( the Crossfit word for gym) and 1-2 days a week at home.  I will have to work up to this as I've been a total slacker and working out 3-5 days a week right off the bat would kill me.

Second  get my deadlift up to 300lbs.  Yes, this will take some time, and probably won't happen until at least summer time, if not fall

Third.  Run a mile without stopping to walk.  Again, this will take a while.  I'm pretty out of shape as far as cardio goes so I'm going to have to work at this.

Fourth  Be a little more selective in my makeup purchases.  I've had a few I've not been exactly happy with.   Time to slow it down and get the ones I know I'll be really really happy with.  I will still be looking for my holy grail of foundation of course. I'm still looking for that perfect foundation.

Fifth  Be consistent with my eating  Been eating a whole bunch of crap, which makes me feel like crap.  I need to be consistent with healthy eating, which makes me feel better, and makes me look better.  And not just weight, but skin, hair, nails.  I just look better.

Sixth  Do a pullup.  I need to work on strength, and probably lose some weight to make it easier, but I want to do a pullup by the end of the year

Seventh  Do toes to bar.  Again, probably need to lose some weight to make it easier, but I will work on doing toes to bar 

I've got a couple other, but I need to find out my one rep max for things like cleans, clean and press, squats so I can see where I want to go with them.

So there it is in plain view for whomever to see.  My goals for this new year.   

Makeup and such for Christmas!

Yes, my family knows me well.  I got two new palettes for Christmas.  My daughter got me the Kyshadow Burgundy palette shown here:

It is so cool! 
And my hubby got me the one I literally told him to get. The Urban Decay Ultimate Basics palette.

OMG!  I love them both so much!

I also got new plate weights so that I can practice Crossfit lifts at home.  Now I just need to get up off my ass and do it.

I've been working towards making goals and plans on how to get to my goals for this next year.   I'm not going to really focus on weight loss as much as eating healthy, and hitting some fitness goals.  Hubby and I are comparing treadmills so I can work on running here at home without freezing my butt off in the winter.

I'm a little bummed out. Carrie Fisher died today.  2016 has SUCKED for losing people.  Not just celebrities, but people around my community that will be greatly missed. 2016 just needs to go fuck off.

Well, its about time to get something to eat, then think about getting ready for work.  Maybe I'll get lucky and get put on call.  I hope so.  LOL!

I told you l liked, no loved makeup lol

So late last night, and I'm talking like 1:45 am, cause I'm a night shift, pure night owl, I started washing my makeup brushes. Or at least the ones I tend to use the most often.

Well, while putting them up to dry, I started looking at my eye shadow palette collection.  And I think I dug out about half my collection, and swatched at least some of the colors all over my forearms.  I just liked looking at how pretty the colors are, what looks I could do with them. Just how nice they are.  I literally had to wash my fingers and my arms off, so I could do more.  Weird I know, but what can I say.  I just like what makeup can do.

Speaking of, I ordered 2 more palettes. Both from BH Cosmetics, which as become one of my favorite places to get makeup.  Great selection, great palettes, and super inexpensive.  Here's what I ordered.

This is the Rose Gold palette.

This one is the Special Collection. Those on the bottom row are blushes, so you get both eye shadows and blushes.   So pretty!

I actually managed a workout today.  Nothing much.  Worked on some overhead squats, front squats, planks, hanging leg raises, and hang cleans. Oh and air squats with a hold at the bottom. And some rotator cuff moves to keep my shoulders happy.  Only did about 25 min, but it did feel good to workout again.   I needed a nice workout.

White shit from hell is falling today.  I hate winter.  I've said it once, I'll say it 100 times. I hate winter.  Snow is only pretty for about 30 mins then it starts looking dirty.  And when it melts, its a freaking sloppy mess for weeks.  I hate winter.

I think maybe I should go do something.  Not sure what.  Its crappy, snowy and dark outside, so nothing outside.  Hubby is watching hockey on tv. Sigh.  Maybe I need to play video games.  Skyrim, or Mass Effect maybe.  Not played them in a while.

Makeup is my addiction lol

My word. I told myself  that for the Christmas season, I would either not buy any makeup at all, or only a little bit .   LOL!  OMG!  I wonder what I consider buying a little???  I've gotten 2 foundations, a few eye shadow palettes, and a few lipsticks.  Oh, and the peach blush palette from Too Faced.  I guess I should be happy I didn't get the shadows from Two Faced lol.

What can I say. I love makeup.  I love how it can transform how you look. How you feel about yourself.  How you can decide to wear it, or not.  Or how much you want to wear.  A little bit for a more natural look, or go full out dramatic and everything in between.  I love the colors, I love just,well I LOVE MAKEUP!  I just can't help myself.  Yes, I NEED the 15 shades of purple eye shadow.  I need 25 shades of pink lipstick.  I need it all! So, of course, I'm online looking at more makeup.  I really want this from ABH.

The Moonchild highlighter from Anastasia of Beverly Hills.  OMG!  I've wanted this for a long time.  Maybe when I hit a fitness goal I'll get it for myself.

Speaking of fitness goals, I've been slacking big time.  Still having trouble finding motivation. I've literally been telling myself that it will get better in a few days when the sun will be out a little more each day.  In a few days.  Just give it a few days and  I can tell myself that there is more sunshine, even if its not shining.  I hope it starts working soon, me telling myself that.

The weather really has me down today.  Its spitting snow and ice.  Yep, ice on the roads. FUCK!  I hate driving on ice.  And Sunday the high will be 6 degrees  Fahrenheit.  The high.  The low, well well well below zero.  And I have to go out in this shit.  I was not designed to be in the winter.  I really hate it.   I guess I'm just not smart enough to move where its warm all the time.  UGH!

Kind of a rambling blog today lol.  Maybe I need to look at more makeup or shoes to cheer myself up lol

Where did my motivation go?

I had a cold last week, one of those that you need to blow your nose when you move.  So anyway, I didn't get much in the way of workouts in.  Kind of hard to workout when you do a move, blow your nose. Do a move, blow your nose.   I'm finally about over it, still need to blow my nose a couple times,but it doesn't run better than I do lol.

But my motivation has totally taken a dive. I think it packed up and went to warmer weather.   I know some is this time of the year.  The lack of sunshine always takes a toll on my mood, my energy, my motivations.  And I know working out and eating healthy would actually make me feel better, but, well, in the middle of it all, I just can't make myself.  I do take St Johns Wort which helps my mood. I usually start taking it late Oct, early Nov.  I was a little slow this year, not starting til mid Nov.  It does seems to help even things out.  And I do try to get as much sunshine in as I can, but working nights, that makes it hard.  

I just need to force myself to do something. Ok, I've been doing some stretching and stuff, but that doesn't really burn many calories or build muscle now does it.  I'm on call tonight, sigh, and while I should do something I hate just starting some workout, then getting the call. Or just starting to break a sweat, then getting the call, and having to try to clean up really fast then going to work.  Being on call sometimes sucks.

Work was really long last night. My 2 ICU patients were not needing much from me, so it was a long night.  That makes for a very long night.  I think that 12 hours lasted more like 36 lol.    I long for the day I can work part-time.  I love being a nurse, but I love being with my hubby whom I have not gotten to see for months at a time when he was deployed.  Part-time would give me the best of both worlds.  Being a nurse, and getting to spend a lot of time with my hubby.

Maybe someday.

Sitting here watching one of my favorite movies

Aliens.  Yes, Aliens is one of my all time favorite movies. Period.  I am not your usual woman.  I don't like the "chick flicks"  I like comic book movies, I like sci fi movies, I like action movies.  I have seen Aliens so many times, I can quote at least 75% of it with the actors. 

I'm on call tonight.  Kind of nice.  Of course, there is the chance I'll be called in to work, but at least for now, I'm not going to have to get up and get around for work. 

Last night, I watched the Ring with my youngest.  We had an interesting talk about " well, what if you were not around a phone when you watched the tape" or, "now, there would be a skype call when you watched the You Tube video"  and then it turned into " what if Bruce Banner watched the tape"  We determined that Samara would scare Bruce, which would trigger the change into the Hulk.  He'd be pissed that this bitch would scare Bruce, and that she got the hardwood floors wet climbing out of the tv.  She'd end up worse off than Loki in the Avengers lol.

I reviewed a new foundation the other day on my You Tube Channel. Here's the link, in case you are interested.  Its the Josie Maren Radiance Foundation.
Foundation Friday

I've been eating really not that great in the last couple days.  I have been fighting a little cold, and my nose has been very stuffy.  The chips and hot spicy cheese dip help open my nose up some. 

Ok, so I just watched the new Guardian's of the Galaxy2 trailer and I need to see this movie NOW! OMG!  Baby Groot!  Drax!  I must see this movie!

See, I'm not your usual woman.  

Busy Thanksgiving week and a fitness revelation.

First of course, came work.  Worked Mon, Tue, and Wed nights, so I got off work about 6:15am Thur morning.  Actually, it was easier work than usual, cause the doctors try hard to clean house, so to speak, meaning getting people home for the holiday if possible.  No scheduled surgeries were on tap, so that cuts down on the patient list, and the couple people that might have stayed, well, they went home cause who the heck wants to be in the hospital for any major holiday?

Of course, I slept some on Thur, then woke up and headed to my sister's for dinner.  Hubby and our youngest were already there, along with other members of my family. Had a great meal!  And it was nice to see everyone.  After a couple hours, headed home, and took a nap.  Thought I'd sleep about 20 mins but that turned into more than an hour.  Guess I was tired.

Fri, I went to Crossfit and tried to burn off a little of Thanksgiving.  Here's the WOD we all did.

Kind of hard to see, but it was a Hero WOD, meaning a WOD ( aka workout) that honors people Crossfit considers heros.  Military who were killed in combat who were Crossfitters.  Police killed in duty who were Crossfitters.  This on was honoring a police member killed. Its a combo of his two favorite workouts.  A lot of us wore blue to honor all our police members everywhere.

I've also had a small revelation.  I found a new You Tube channel to watch  Dr Sara Solomon. She's a dentist who was also a fitness competitor.  Rather successful too I think.  Anyway, about a year ago, she went from training for pure aesthetics to training for getting fitter, getting better at stuff like pullups, running, that sort of thing.  I've watched her videos for a couple weeks now, and its really got me to thinking.  I've been only working out to lose weight.  Not for anything else, and its really not gotten me much of anything.   But the first time I started Crossfit, I was concentrating on getting better at things like deadlifts, pushups, almost getting my first pullup, and I lost weight and was starting to get fitter.

So why am I not doing this now?  Why am I not just putting my focus on just getting fitter?  Trying to improve my squat form, increase the weights I lift. Run faster, or run at all lol.  

So I'm working on switching my thinking that I'm training. I'm  working towards just getting fitter.  I want to run faster and longer.  I want to lift heavier.  I want to be a fitter person.  So I need to train.  And I need to eat to fuel my training. Ok, so that will have to wait until next week lol.  But I've started working at home to get fitter. I have a pullup bar rigged up, ok, so its my olympic bar set up high, but it works.  I've worked on squat form.  Ab mat sit ups. Snatch form.  Overhead squats.  If I can perfect form at home, my workouts will get better.

I think I'm going to look towards getting a treadmill so I can work on running at home during the winter.  I'm going to use my rower and spin bike to improve my cardio capacity too.  I'm going to be a fit person!

What a great day!

I'm finally getting to string together 3 nights off!   Amen and hallelujah!  I managed to catch up on sleep yesterday.   Finally.  Felt great.  Amazing how much better you feel when you are not just tired.

Went to a Mary Kay party last night.  And if you don't think I didn't order stuff, you'd be wrong.  Ordered some new foundation, which I will be reviewing after I get it.  Ordered some hand stuff too, cause I need help keeping my hands and cuticles from being all dry and cracked at work.  You put alcohol gel on about a million times in 12 hours and see if your hands don't dry and crack.

Today we meaning hubby and I, went to Des Moines.  Hit the mall. I got 2 pair of booties and an ab mat.   Ok, I hear you asking "WTF is and ab mat"  Well, this is an ab mat.

You put it behind your back and do sit ups.  The best way is to have your feet in a butterfly position for them.  Like this 

Works the abs great!  Cause I need NEED to supplement what I do in Crossfit with stuff I can do at home.  I need to workout more cause well I'm sick of being fat and tired. 

We also went to Costco, and was surprised to not spend more than $100.  Made up for it getting groceries.  Stocked up on fruit and veggies.  Need to eat more of them.  Period!

Filming a review of the Fiona Stiles foundation I've wanted to review for a couple weeks or more. I think this one will finally come out ok. I've used it a few times, and really like it. 

Gonna have to cut this short.  My lap dog Frodo decided to jump up on my lap and sleep on my keyboard.  Do you know how hard it is to type with a dog in the way?  Let me tell you, its hard lol.

I need better camera equipment, period

So, when I started my You Tube channel, I got a rather cheap camcorder.    Now it works ok.  But I've noticed during some filmings, most I've scrubbed, I look redder than my hair.  I mean its horrible.  Others I look ok.   So I got out my old camera and I've filmed some on it, but its a few years old, and well, it shows.  The picture isn't good, and when I wear a bright colored eye shadow, it just simply doesn't show up. 

So, I need better equipment, period.  A nicer camera, and I'd like to get better lights for when I film.  I'm thinking Christmas presents!!!   Been researching some cameras, and have a few I'm gonna look more into.

Went to Des Moines today. Picked up a couple new outfits, not scrubs amazing enough.  And a couple things at Sephora, of course lol. This is one of the things I got today.

I'll have to really give it a good try over the next few days.  I'll let you know what I think.

I also picked this up:

I put a little on the back of my hand and not only did it seem like it has good coverage, it was nice and creamy. 

So, cause my video I filmed today has me looking kind of crappy, and really red, I'm gonna film another and hope to get it up tomorrow. A "Bedtime skin care routine" video.  I'll use my older camera, cause I won't be showing bright vivid colors, so it won't matter as much.

So off to do more camera research.  I want to find one that's less than $500.  I think the quality of videos will be so much better with a better camera set up.

So I guess its been a few days

Been busy at work, or attempting to catch up on sleep.  I had a 48hr period of time where I only got a total of 9 hours of sleep.  So I've just simply been just to freaking tired to really care about blogging lol  Sorry. 

I'm going around tonight all over the Sephora website. I'm going to try a couple new things for skin care.  While I'm still trying to find my favorite couple foundations, it simply won't matter if my skin sucks.  And well, I'm vein enough to want to look younger as I get older.  Skin care!

So I think I'm going to get  this

OMG!  That's suck a small picture!  Anyway, its the Drunk Elephant C-Firma Day Serum, a vitamin C serum.  Ok, so I found a better picture, I hope

I also am going to buy this

Sunday Riley's Juno.  I've tried her Luna, and liked it ok.  Just want to try something else out to compare.   I'll blog about what I think after I've used them for a while.

Tomorrow I'm going to film a review of the Fiona Stiles foundation.  I've used it a few times, but have not filmed a review.  Time to do that.

Got some Colourpop in today.  I ordered the Hello Kitty stuff.  Looks like this:

I can't wait to play with them both!  I really enjoy Colourpop eyeshadows.

I finally FINALLY got to Crossfit for the first time in 2 weeks.  My work, I lost a little cardio conditioning. I'll get it back, but wow.  I sucked.  Sucked air, and just sucked lol.  But I felt so great to be back. It was AMAZING!!!

Kind of a longer post today.  WOW!  Guess I'm making up for lost time.   And now that I've got a good posting done, time to shop!  I worked extra shifts in the last couple weeks, and I'm going to get some stuff!

Just til the end of this week!

Then I'll be done with the worst of it.  The extra shifts, the classes, etc. God I hope its over.  I just want to have the days off I'm suppose to. 

I started taking St Johns Wort again.  I have found myself feeling really blah, and just irritable. Finally dawned on me that I hadn't started taking it. I usually take it starting mid Oct through Feb, sometime early March.  I get a little blah and down in the winter with the lack of sunshine.  So I"m back on it again.  To bad it takes a couple weeks to really feel the results.  To bad I didn't start it a couple weeks ago.  I'd be feeling better by now.

Going back to Methodist to job shadow in the CCU there.  On my day off of course, cause they " just couldn't get me off the floor" to get me up there.  So on my day off I have to drive 90 miles, shadow for 12-13 hours, then drive 90 miles back home.  Great.  I mean I really enjoyed it the first day I went, but it does screw up my days off.  I could have gotten my daughters wedding dress picked up today rather than going to Methodist.

Speaking of the wedding dress, my sleep will be all fucked up.  So I won't get to bed until after 10am tomorrow.  I can't sleep long cause I need to try to get to bed kind of early Fri night cause I have to get up early for me on Sat.  Yes,  8am is early when you work night shift.  Try waking up at 3am people and see if you thing its early.   Go get the dress, hope to God it doesn't take to long, cause I'd like a nap before I work all night on Sat.  I'm not really wanting to be up all fucking night without a nap. Esp when I'm going to be working.  So please please please let me get a nap in on Sat.

I'm really not looking forward to working this weekend. My daughter and her boyfriend are coming down for her birthday, and I might get to see them for an hour or two.  Great.  I hate work sometimes.  I mean I love taking care of people, for the most part, but being a nurse means working holidays, weekends, all night long, during school thing. Going to meetings on days off.  And nothing NOTHING is ever set for a good time for night shift workers.  EVER!   I guess we just don't need sleep. 

Well, its almost time to get ready for work. Gonna film a "How I do my makeup" video today. Hope to get it up tomorrow.

What a not a weekend, but at least Doctor Strange rocked

My weekend wasn't much of a weekend off.  Worked Fri into Sat, 13 hours, then drove home 90 mins.  Slept all of 4 hours.  Was exhausted on Sat, but I didn't want to sleep to much cause I needed to be able to get to bed at an almost reasonable hour to get up and teach Sunday school at the local nursing home.  I do that every month to 6 weeks.  
Then I did church.  I had not gotten to go to church in way to long.  I missed it, and felt great to get to go.

Hubby then took me to Des Moines to see Doctor Strange.  OMG!  It was so good.  I can't wait to see it again.  If you have not seen it, you need to remember to stay through all the credits. All of them.  Setting stuff up for later movies.

Back to work today and I don't want to go. I want some fucking days off where I don't have to do stuff.  Where I don't end up sleeping most of it away, where I don't have other responsibilities to take care of. 

This weekend will suck.  My daughter is coming home from collage for her birthday, and I will not get to see her much at all.  Why, cause I'll be at work or sleeping. Great.  Maybe if I'm lucky I'll see her for a couple hours the whole weekend. Not much of a time with my girl.

I'm just feeling a little bummed.  Just seems like these last few weeks work has been ruling my life and I'm not enjoying that.  I do enjoy taking care of people but really I only want to go to work, then come home and really enjoy my time off.  I really live for my time off.   I'm hoping hubby gets his 100% VA disability so I can cut back to 2 days a week.  Seems like I'm missing out on stuff cause I'm at work all the time. Or sleeping. Which is weird when I only work 3 days a week, but with all the extra classes, and meetings and such it seems like I'm there all the time.

Or maybe have my You Tube channel take off and I start making money from it lol.  Right. Don't get my hopes up lol.  Maybe in a year or two I might start making a couple hundred bucks a month from it.  Oh well.  I guess I'm going to have to get ready for work. I don't wanna but I have to do it.

Someday things will be normal

Just no anytime in the next week or two.   Today, after 3 of the longest 12 hour shifts I've worked in a while, I have to go up to Des Moines to job shadow in the ICU at Methodist.  Its for my training but man, I don't want to go.  I'm tired, I'm grumpy, and I'm just tired.  Sometimes I'm not sure management is really looking out for the nursing staff.  We just kind of get told "we'll be fine" when we're understaffed which makes me feel like a shit nurse, cause I can't do the things I want to do.  I want to do more than the basics.  The meds and assessment. I want to do stuff like back rubs, helping brush teeth, or even the  simple next step, like taking them out for walks in hallways.    But when we're understaffed, we can't do that.  But "we'll be fine"  Um, ok, but how about the patients?  Will they when the nursing staff is stressed?

I just want it to be 7am tomorrow morning, so maybe I'll get a couple days off.  Except that Sat will be me sleeping for a few hours so Sat will be a waste.  And Sun, I've got other responsibilities,  before I finally get to do something I want to do.  Go see Doctor Strange.   That's the only thing I'm really looking forward to in the next couple days.  Nothing else really.  I'm just tired.  Tired of the extra training that always takes away my time off.  God love the government and its mandates to force people to do extra training.

I'm feeling kind of whiny today.  I've got about 10 mins before I have to get ready to leave, again.  UGH!  Not a way to start a job shadow, feeling grumpy and whiny and feeling so tired.  I just want to get through this, and next week and maybe I can get back to regular days.

Should have played a video game. Maybe killing stuff would make me feel better.  I hope I can get to that tomorrow.

See you all later, and I hope that you have a better day than I seem to be having.

24 hours done, 24 hours left to go

Two more 12 hour shifts left to go this week. I just want to survive.  The last couple of nights have been very long, and hectic.  One more night, then I get one night off before another night.  Please let me survive.  And I think tonight we might be short staffed!  What fun! 

I really need to get to filming a new video.  I have a good idea of what to produce, my Yes, No and Maybe for Oct.  Have a few products I love, hated, and well, maybe they might work, maybe they won't.  I hope to get it done tomorrow.

I really don't think I slept enough today.  A couple more hours would have been nice.    Oh well.  I guess I'll just have to deal with it, and I'll be ok.

I really don't have much to say today.  Won't be much longer and I'll be getting ready for work. I hope it goes smooth today. 

I don't feel bad, but I don't feel good

I just am having a blah kind of day. I'm not sick.  I just don't feel good today.  Kind of BLAH.   I think its a combo of weather, kind of overcast today,  the sun not being up for as long, and well, I'm starting a long ass week today.  I work my 3, 12 hour night shifts, then on Fri, after one day off, I go up to Des Moines for training/job shadowing in an ICU up there. UGH!  I kind of don't want to.  Gonna make for a very long week, 4 12 hour shifts.  

I'm going to be filming a review of Fiona Stiles foundation today.  I won't be posting it for a few days, but at least it will get filmed.  Here's what it looks like:

I know its a small picture.  Best I could find.

Trying to type here with a dog laying half on my laptop, half on my lap. It does make it more of a challenge to type when I have a dog head in my way.  You should all try it sometime lol.

I really need to figure out what to eat before I get ready for work.  I don't wanna go.  Can't I just stay at home and play Skyrim?  That's what I really want to do. Spent about 5 hours playing Skyrim and eat popcorn lol.

Hope everyone else has a  better day than I'm having.

My first impression and review of Marc Jacobs Remarcable foundation

Ok, so today I wore a new foundation.  Marc Jacob's Remarcable foundation.  Here's what it looks like.

It sells for $55 for 0.75oz which is a lot of money for what is less than the usual foundation. That's why I have been reluctant to try it out until I got a 20% off coupon from Sephora.    It came to me this last couple days and I did a review of it. I'm posting a video to my You Tube Channel tonight. I'll have a link off to the side if you want to watch.

I used Urban Decay Pore Perfecting Primer on my face then applied half with a beauty blender, then half with a brush.  I liked the blender side better.  I also put to much on I think.  That made it get a little clumpy at the end of the day.  But right at first, it looked amazing.  Good coverage, even on my nose which never looks good with foundation on.  Something about my nose and the oils on it makes pretty much all foundations look like crap and be very spotty on my nose.

I wore it for 6+ hours at the final review on my video.  Still looked pretty good, just a little clumpy, but I'm really thinking I put to much on.  I think with this foundation, less it more cause its pretty darn pigmented and gives good coverage with very little. That's a point in its favor for being more expensive for less, if you only have to use a few drops to get full coverage.   So I'm going to wear it again, using far less, and seeing how it looks after several hours.

If you have skin like mine, normal on the cheeks, oily on the nose/t-zone, you might try this.  I think you can get samples from Nordstroms and maybe Sephora.   I know I'm pretty impressed.

That was a huge makeup FAIL!

So I have a slightly oily nose.  Its slowly getting less oily as I age, use to be I could have changed the oil in my car with my nose by the end of the day, but now its just super shiny at the end of the day.  Does not help my foundation last.  Tried all sorts of primers, powders,  etc for that.  Heard one thing I've not tried.  Using eye shadow primer.  Ok, so that You Tuber was using MACs paint pot.  I tried and Urban Decay one, and holy crap that was a FAIL.  A BIG ASS FAIL!
After about 3 hours, I blew my nose at work, and literally ALL MY FOUNDATION CAME OFF MY NOSE!   Thank goodness I had a powder foundation I use as a powder in my purse to put a little coverage on my nose, so I don't look like Rudolph the red nosed nurse the rest of the night.

Holy crap that was bad. Bad bad bad.   Maybe I'll try it again,  if I ever get some MAC paint pot.  I won't be using Urban Decay eye shadow primer again for my nose lol.

I'm doing a first impression of Kat Von D's Lock It foundation today.  I hope the video is ok. Filming when I'm tired sometimes is a crap shoot.  Might be good, might suck ass.  You never know.  Tomorrow, I'll be doing a first impression and review of Marc Jacobs Remarcable foundation.   So look for that.  I'll also be getting into that new Anastasia palette I got last week.

So look for a few new videos to be posted soon.

I am still kind of sore from my Crossfit workouts this week. Feels so great to be getting back into it again.  I need to get my eating just a little more under control and the results will come faster I'm sure.  I'm back tracking calories again, and I see where I need to make a few changes.  Baby steps and I'll get there.   I've seen some minor results, and I can't wait to see more.

My poor aching body!

So I finally got to go to Crossfit last night. Went heavy on the deadlifts that were part of the workout.  Now, my legs, glutes and lower back are regretting that decision. Big time lol.  Work might be interesting tonight.  Its just a little hard getting up and down out of chairs.  And God help me if I need to help lift a patient up in bed.  Silly thing is, I'm looking forward to tomorrow's workout, provided I can move.

I ordered that new Urban Decay Full Spectrum palette today.  And yesterday I ordered a couple new foundations using a 20% off coupon at Sephora a friend sent me.  I got the Marc Jacobs foundation, and the Kat Von D Lock it foundation. I'll review them in the next couple weeks.

I'm sitting here watching That 70s Show.  I kind of don't want to go to work. One full day off just wasn't enough.  I want another day off.   Oh well.  I'll go and be the good nurse.

Maybe if I need to take a hot bath before I go to work.  Of course, that usually makes me sleepy and being sleepy right before a 12 hour night shift might not be a good thing.  Guess it will just be plenty of Advil for me tonight.

I'm going to have to get my new book packed in my bag for tonight in case we have a few minutes down time.  I read the Chronicles of the Necromancer series by Gail Z Martin, and now I'm moving on to the Fallen Kings series, which is kind of a pick up from the last Necromancer book.  I'm really enjoying the books, and love the world she has built.

Well, off to think about getting ready for work. Maybe I'll luck out and I'll get called off.  Nah, won't be that lucky to get called off when I'm this sore, lol.

Please take care of yourself

I mean it.  I'm seeing all sorts of patients who well, basically abused their bodies, and now are having all sorts of health problems.  And not just minor ones.  Strokes that leave them with balance problems.  Major infections cause they are overweight, and get skin infections that turn septic.  High blood pressure that ruins kidneys leading to dialysis.  So many other ways people abuse their bodies then suffer the consequences, sometimes for years leading to multiple hospital stays.

I know I'm not the best one to take care of myself, but man.  People drinking themselves into a stupor  almost daily, smoking a couple packs a day for decades, being over 400lbs.  How can you not know that probably will lead to health problems?   And not minor ones either.

So please people, take care of your body.  Its the only one you have.  The only one that you get.   I know some things are totally out of your control.  But so many things you can manage.  I wish more people would just help themselves.

On a better thought, I got several deliveries today.  I'm going to film a video today and post it I hope tomorrow.   I can't wait to actually get to try them out. Got a couple really cool looking highlighters!   And the new Anastasia eye shadow palette.  Can't wait!

I finally get a full day off tomorrow.  Bout time.  I was getting just a little tired and grumpy.   I need to get to Crossfit.  These next couple weeks will make it hard to get there, but I'm going to try to get there 2-3 days a week. 

Back to counting calories  and making sure I get enough protein in my diet.  That's the key for me.  Plenty of protein.  And veggies of course, but I've been slacking on that.  But I went to the store and stocked up, so well, I need to get them eaten lol.

Well, off to film chat later.

What a long night.

We were pretty low in patients last night. Hey, that's usually a really good thing!  That people are not sick enough to be in our hospital. Unless, of course, it means they are so bad off we have to transfer them to one of the large hospitals in Des Moines.  But mostly it meant that people are just not sick enough to be in our hospital.

But it means its a few long night, when there isn't  much to do.   We try to keep busy, but really, at 2am, its not like we can do a whole lot, because we don't want to wake the patients who we do have, and piss them off.  So I just kept checking in on mine, and making sure they were ok. 

I have a feeling it will be much the same tonight.  So I'm trying to prepare myself.  I don't wanna lol. I  kind of want to be put on call but I'm 99.9% sure I won't be put on call.  Hope I slept enough.  I woke up a little more than an hour before I wanted to.  I stayed in bed for that time, but only cat napped a little.  Didn't really get back to sleep.  So I'll feel that about 2-3am. I'm sure.

I was hoping to go to Crossfit tomorrow, but I've got to do that class I didn't do the other day.  UGH!  And of course, its right at the times my Crossfit times are.  So that freaking sucks!   I'm gonna do a workout at home on Monday evening cause I need to. I NEED TO!  I just feel better when I'm working out.  So I'm gonna kick my own ass on Monday!

I think I'm going to hit Amazon and pick up a couple things.  I saw a review for a foundation stick from thatalaa.  I like her. She's one of my favorite reviewers,  her and Stephanie Nicole.  They seem like they give the most honest reviews.

I'm going to be filming a new review today or tomorrow.  Need to get a few things ready for the first part of the video.   But first, off to Amazon!  Later everyone!

I'm in a grumpy mood

I'm just having a time of "I don't want to take care of people who don't give a shit about their own health" kind of day.   We have had quite a few people lately who just don't give two shits about their own health.   Makes it hard to really care about someone's body if they don't care about the body they themselves live in.   I mean, if you don't give a crap about the health  of the body you are living in, why should I?  I try to do some teaching, little things that might help them be healthier, have a better outcome, and they just don't care.

So I don't really want to go to work today.  I really don't.  I wish I didn't have to work lol.  I still would, probably about once a week, just to get out of the house, and give me something to do, but full time, no.    The only reason to go into work today, is that I love my co-workers.  They are an awesome bunch of people to work with.  Otherwise, I might think about calling in sick lol.  But I'll have a good time working with my night shift crew.

Waiting for my stuff to get delivered is so hard.  I'm still waiting for my TAM beauty order, and of course, I just ordered the Anastasia Mario palette yesterday from Macy's.   Man waiting it hard.  I want that right now.  And waiting for stuff to get in stores sucks too.  I want that new Urban Decay palette.  Waiting just sucks lol

Its about time to go get something to eat. I eat at such weird times when I work.   What do you call the meal you eat at around 1am?  And my first meal today will be around 2pm, so is that lunch or breakfast?  Things night shift people ponder lol.

I don't wanna go to that class.

So I've got a 2 hour class I signed up for today. I'm really thinking of not going today and going another day. Its my day off, I'm going to work the next 3 nights in a row, I just don't wanna go in today and ruin my day off.  Its getting a little nutty with all the classes, and such that the hospital is having us do.  Esp when I've talked to other nurses to took the class already, and they all said its stuff we already know about.  And it was a very LOOONNNGGG 2 hours going over stuff we all know already.  Maybe 5 mins is new stuff, the rest of the 2 hours, things we already know about.

I'm trying to enjoy a little alone time in the house. Hubby does some light work for the local car dealer. He's been friends with the son of the owner, who is the main car seller, since kindergarten.  He will drive cars for dealer trades, or if they need a car to go get heated seats, etc.  I was looking forward to the alone time, but I slept a nice chunk of it away lol.  Ok, hubby left just after 6am, but I could have gotten up an hour earlier than I did. At least I did get to watch Hoarding Buried Alive while lounging in bed.  

Still trying to decide if I want to get my butt up and go to that stupid class.  There are several other times I could go to, and the longer I think about it, the more I'm thinking I could just call in and tell them I'll come another day.

I was hoping I'd get a package in the mail today.  It was shipped from England on the 10th, so it could come about any time.  Man, things things seem like they take forever when they are mailed.  I've got a couple other things I'm thinking of getting.  After that I don't have that much more I want.  Well I do want to get some new brushes, but right now, I just have a couple palettes I want.

First is the Anastasia Mario palette.  Here it is:

I also want Urban Decay's new palette, Full Spectrum

The colors in the Urban Decay look amazing! 

Then there are more palettes I've thought about, but some reviews have not been great, and I probably need to slow down a little and use what I've got, cause I've got plenty!  If you want to see, you need to check out my new video on my makeup collection I posted.  Here's the link.
My makeup collection

Not much else to say today.  Hope everything goes great for you!

My house smells so clean! And should I buy it or should I not

I pretty much spent my day steam cleaning my carpets.  Almost all my carpets.   It took forever cause well, they were pretty darn dirty.    I always put some stuff that is suppose  to help with smells of pets in the tank, and I put Febreeze in with my cleaning solution.  So now my house smells so nice!  I wish it would smell like this forever, but by tomorrow, it won't.  Worked up quite a sweat cause its very warm today, and well I use hot water and it just took a few hours to do the whole house. 

I do feel less dehydrated than I did yesterday.  My mild pinkness on my nose is also gone. Now I have the color I usually have in mid summer lol.  I was able to wear a slightly darker foundation today.  Ok, so I'm talking somewhat less than white lol.

I'm trying to decide what next to buy next.  I'm torn cause I'd love to try out some Jeffree Star stuff, and some Juvia's Place stuff.  But then when I do a little research, I find some not so nice stuff.  The Juvia's Place stuff isn't really bad, but I've heard a bunch of  people say they either never got their stuff or that they had horrible customer service from the company. 

The Jeffree Starr stuff is worse. I'm not really sure I want to buy anything from that company, but man, his highlighters look amazing, and I want to try out his lipsticks.  Decisions, decisions. 

Then another thing I'd like to try is some Kylie Cosmetics, but OMG. Supporting one of those Kardashian morons is not high up on my list of things to do.  Then I've read and seen reviews of her lip colors not being full, and that they are pretty crappy in coverage.

Oh, what to do what to do.  Maybe I'll just hold off,  wait for reviews of Kylie's newest stuff, and see if Juvia's Place gets their customer service under control.   And besides,  Anastasia of Beverly Hills has a new palette out now, and Urban Decay is putting one out at the end of the month.  I think I'll just get those two, and worry about the rest later. 

I'm going to be looking for better storage for my makeup.  I saw on an Instagram a blogger has her foundations on a 2 tier lazy susan, and that looked like a great idea. So I'm going to looking at those here soon.  I'm also going to slowly upgrade my brushes.  I'm going to be getting a combo of Morphe, Sigma, and MAC brushes over the next few months.  I'm hoping to get a couple a month.   I'm hoping that with better brushes, my makeup will go on a little better. 

Not much else to yak about today.  Will be filming a new video either today or tomorrow.  Hope to have it up like on Wed.

Posted my haul video!

If you have any inkling on seeing the goodies I picked up for myself, please watch the video.

Here's the link
Unexpected haul

Now sadly I have to go pluck a splinter out of my finger.  I thought I had gotten it, but nope. I still have it in my forefinger. 

And if you watch the video, you'll get to see Thor, one of my cats. So keep your eyes out lol.

I didn't fall off the wagon, I jumped and was ran over

So I have a confession.  I fell off the fitness wagon, ok, I jumped, then was ran over.  But, thankfully, it stopped, and tomorrow I can drag my fat carcass back on.    I'm feeling very bloated. I mean BLOATED.  Ate way to much crap over the weekend at the Nascar race.   And I feel slightly dehydrated too.  It was only 73 degrees, cloudy and a little misty for Saturdays race. But today, it was 87, sunny, sunny and sunny.  And windy.   I don't think I drank enough during the race, to now I'm downing a bunch of water.  I also might have gotten a little pink on my nose.  No lectures. I put SPF 60 on at the beginning of my day, then put on SPF100 at the track.  I also had a hat on to help block the rays.  But I'm pale pale pale, and well, that's what you get. 

I'm going to be filming my unexpected haul video really soon, then editing and posting it tomorrow.  I'm kind of excited to finally get to open up my stuff.  I've been saving opening it up until I film.  I want to play with my stuff!!!

I'm going to Crossfit if it kills me!  I missed it last week and I really want to go .  And that will help with the bloating.  And make me so SO sore.   And I'm going to love every freaking minute of it!

Back to juicing and tracking calories tomorrow also.  I was bad with food choices and now its time to get back on that wagon.  I feel so very blah, and fat right now.  UGH!  Drink plenty of water, eat healthy for me food tomorrow, and I'll feel so much better this time tomorrow.

Not much else today.  See you all soon.

I got a a few new things today!

Hubby and I went to the Nascar race today at Kansas Motor Speedway.  We will be going again tomorrow to watch the "big boys" race. 
Anyway. Before we went, we stopped at St Joe Mo.  He dropped me off at the mall, ok at the JC Penny's at the mall cause there was a Sephora in there.  Now, I am not the biggest fans of the Sephora's in JC Penny's mainly cause they are not big enough to have everything that a stand alone store has. But that didn't stop me from spending almost $160 in there lol. Then I got a couple light jackets to wear at work cause its always cold in the hospital, esp at night.  Nice to have a light jacket or 3 to wear.

Then after the race, I noticed that there is an Ulta store in town, cause we are staying at St Joe. and so, I dropped hubby off at the hotel, so he could watch the Cubs play, and I spent like $88 there in Ulta.

So I'm now going to be filming a "what I bought over the weekend" video in the next day or two.  Can't wait!  It's so hard to wait to play with my stuff!  But really, what's the point when I will be at the racetrack, with a cap, sunglasses, and a bunch of sunscreen on, in wearing makeup.  Oh, I put some on, cause its hard not to have a little on for when we're in buildings and I have my glasses off, or that sort of thing.  But full face, nope.

So here I sit, blogging, and I'll be watching You tube here in a little bit, while hubby watches the Cubs hopefully win. 

Had a great day, even if that idiot Kyle Busch won the race. No, I do not like Kyle Busch, even if he's teammate to one of my drivers, Denny Hamlin.  I do NOT want to see Busch win tomorrow. UGH!  Go Denny, or Joey Logano.  I'd also be ok with Matt Kenseth winning, but not Jimmy Johnson, Kyle Busch, or that witch Danica Patrick. No, I'm not a fan of hers.  What has she done?  Nothing. There are better women racers out there, but they don't get a ride, while she does.  Johanna Long with a second rate team, almost always beat Danica in the Nationwide series when they were both in that series, and Danica had the best equipment, while Johanna had at best second rate stuff.  But Danica is "pretty" and models in a bikini, while Johanna, while just as pretty, has not been on tv in a bikini.  Hmm.  I wish someone would give Johanna a full time ride in the Xfinity series, in good equipment, cause I bet she could earn a place in the Sprint Cup.  But sadly no one will.

I guess that's enough of a rant today.  Look for a new video to be posted on what I got to be posted probably on Monday.

AH!!! Rest day! And a mini review of Loreal Lumi Cushion Foundation

Finally have a day off.  OMG how wonderful.  No meetings, no work just nothing.  Just sitting around, editing a new video, posting it to You Tube, and watching tv.  I'm hoping to get my book read, or mostly read.  I'm reading The Blood King by Gail Z Martin. Second in the Chronicles of the Necromancer series.  I really  really liked the first one. The second is really good.

I'm now sitting around watching other You Tubers.  Right now, Hot and Flashy is up next. She's a little older, in her 50s and I love her reviews of makeup for not 20 year olds lol.  That's what I kind of hope to be eventually. Someone that people who maybe are not in their 20s with perfect skin but are looking for good foundation, or whatever.  I've got a ways to go lol.  But I'm having fun, and getting a few more subscribers, and a few more views so its all good. 

Work was pretty easy last night.  Thank goodness.  I needed an easier night of work, esp since this one was a pick up shift.  I'm planning on using most of this money on another major purchase  of makeup.  I've got a couple higher end foundations I want to try out, and then review.  I've got a review up I filmed last night and today, and I'm gonna post a link, and do a review of it here.

Here's the link. Lumi Cushion review

Here are my thoughts.  I really liked this one.  I will be reaching for this foundation again.  Yesterday I used the little cushion it came with, but today, I dipped my damp beauty blender in, and liked the way it looked even better.   I wore it during an 8 hour pick up shift, and really, it lasted fairly well.  Slid off a little off my nose, but then again, I did a little nose rubbing. Its dry and hot in the nursing home, and it makes my nose itchy. Didn't settle into my lines or wrinkles, or my pours much.  I am planning another review during a 12 hour shift/15 hour wear time.  My main issue, is that there isn't a shade quite light enough. The one I was wearing was about half a shade to dark, then it oxidized a little to about a full shade to dark.  I'm sure it will be fine in the late spring/summer when I'm about a shade darker.  I wish makeup companies would realize that people range from slightly darker than a piece of paper to as dark as midnight, and make foundations in that range, or really close.   This is on the list for potential Holy Grail Foundation for me.  I'm going to have to start keeping notes on my foundation reviews, then maybe have a foundation showdown eventually lol.

That's about all I have today.  Hope you watch the video and give me a comment on what you would like to see me review next, or what kind of video you would like to see.  I'll do my best to do it in the future.

I survived!

Ok, not quite, cause I have to work tonight, but its only an 8hour shift, and its at the nursing home I use to work at.  Won't be administering blood all night long when I'm there lol

Felt a little like Vampirella the queen of blood over the last few days. One day I transfused 4 units, the next 2. To two separate patients.  Is that a good thing or a bad thing that two people needed blood, rather than one person needing a whole shit load of blood?  Things that nurses ponder.

I've missed Crossfit all week long.  I thought I could go after my meeting yesterday got done a little early, but I was exhausted. That bone tired, just couldn't hardly move tired.  I came home, ate supper, and took a nap for about 40 mins. I felt better after and then messed around on the internet, and then finished a book I've been working on for a few days.

I also managed to sleep 10 hours overnight.  WOW!  Not done that for a while, and I almost felt like I finally got caught up on sleep, or pretty close.   Good thing since I'm working tonight.  But it will be an easy night, cause after a few days at the hospital, it will be an easier night.

Got my Ipsy bag and stuff I ordered from Morphe.  Managed to get a video up about it.  Here's a link:
Ipsy Bag video

My sinuses are flaring up. Ugh!  Sucks waking up with a sinus headache.  At least meds help.  Sinus problems just hurt and suck.

I can't wait for the weekend!  Kanas Motor Speedway!  Hope one of my drivers actually wins!  As long as I'm with my hubby it will be a good weekend.  Just having one of our drivers winning just makes it even better.

Not much else to say today.  Gonna just lounge around before work.  I think I have that coming to me.

Night one, done, 2 more to go

Spent the night working ICU with a couple people.  Thankfully, they were not really really sick. Just really sick.  Kind of a weird way to say it.  Just really sick not really really sick.  I guess that's something nurses understand.

I didn't make it to Crossfit.  I decided to sleep that extra 15 min rather than get up and eat something really fast and then hustle my ass off to get to Crossfit on time.  I was tired, and will have a high  likely hood of being in ICU again tonight, so I wanted the extra sleep. 15 min might not seem like much, but right now, go lay down and take a 15 min cat nap and see how much better you feel.  Then tell me 15 min extra sleep isn't that much.


I guess today I just don't have much to say lol.  Still a little tired, wish I didn't have to go to work tonight, and well just want to sleep about 2 more hours more.

Hell week starts today

I'm not looking forward to most of this week.  First off  I work Sun Mon Tue all 12 hour shifts, night shift, I might remind you.  Then Wed, when I get off work between 6am and 6:30am, I'll crash there at the hospital. Why you might ask.  Well, I have a 6 hour "class" on Crisis management.  You know, what to do if an armed person comes into the hospital.  I'm sorry, I'm running away if someone with a gun comes in my hospital.  I'll closed the locking doors in the hallways, and GTFO.  Period.  If I'm feeling nice, I'll tell the people who can walk to GTFO with me.  There crisis managed.  Anyway, its not worth driving the 40 mins home, only to get 3-4 hours sleep to drive back for the class when I can crash there and maybe get 5 hours sleep.

Then Thur, I was stupid and picked up a shift at the nursing home I worked at. so yep, great.  WTF did I do that?  I mean the extra money will be nice, but now I'm thinking that was pretty freaking stupid.   Finally on Fri I have the weekend off.  Going to Kansas Motor Speedway for the Nascar race there this coming weekend.  Thank goodness. I'll be ready for a few days off after this week.

You know what's really sad, that we need a crisis management class. A class on how to deal with a gunman in a small town hospital.  That's just a sad sad showing of society in the USA.  That a small town hospital needs a class for its employees that teaches them ways to get out alive if a gunman shows up.  Welcome to America everyone.

I'm hoping I'm not to tired and can make it to Crossfit Mon and Thur.  Since my shift on Thur is only an 8 hour shift, and doesn't start til 10pm and it only a 5 min drive, I can go to the later class on Thur. I really want to get to going 3 days a week on a regular basis.   I need it.

In a couple hours I'll be getting ready for work. Sigh.  I don't wanna lol.  I just need to win a the lottery and then I could work just one or two days a week to keep busy.  Probably would help if I played lol.  Oh well. Gonna keep thinking it will be a good shift, but looking at my co workers tonight I can only hope.  It me, and two girls who are brand new nurses, just off orientation, and then a nurse ready to retire in a month or so, and she's shows her age.  So I'm hoping its a nice easy night, cause the new nurses are good, just have limited experience with things.   As long as we are not overwhelmed with patients or have really hard patients, it will be a good night.  If we are overwhelmed, or have really hard patients, the newer nurses could find themselves overwhelmed, behind and needing more help.  I'll help them, but  there will be two of them.  So lets hope and pray its a good night!

Just a few random thoughts

I posted my Ulta Haul video on You Tube today.  Here's the link for it in case you want to see what all I got.
Ulta Haul

It was nice to get to spend the extra money I made from a couple pick up shifts on stuff I wanted. Oh, I wanted more, but this will have to do.  Now I just need to try this all out.  I did try out the Lorac palette today.  Posted a pick on Snapchat and on Instagram.  If you want to follow me on Instagram I'm rhbrand1 there.  Or here's the link.  My Instagram

Not much going on today. A nice lazy day.  Hubby will be leaving soon to go to his parents house to see his brother who came up for the weekend.  I won't go to give him time to see his brother. That and they want to play cards and I hate playing cards.  I'm screw around on the internet and read some while he's gone.

Tonight I'll be doing a workout here at home. Need to cause I just feel better when I workout on at least a semi-regular basis.  Gonna hit back and glutes.  I want to build up to doing pullups. That's my goal. Pullups.  And weight loss of course.  Weighing less will help me do pullups.  I'd go run/walk outside but I tripped on my boxer the other morning and rolled my left ankle a little. It was fine, but then add 450 jumps from jumping rope and my calf is now hurting a little bit.  So I'll keep the running to a min. until its better.

I'm on the Mac website as we speak looking at their foundations.  Might order one to try it out. Never had a Mac foundation before.  I've had their eye shadows, but even that's been years.  I know a couple people who love Mac foundation, so I just need to decide what one to get.

I really should do laundry.  I need to wash workout clothes and scrubs.  Seems like that's about 75% of my laundry anymore.  And maybe pack a workout bag for Mon.  I'm gonna try to go to Crossfit on Mon. We'll see how that goes.

I really should post a bunch of workout videos for sale. I know I won't be doing quite a few of them  much anymore cause I'm just enjoying Crossfit way to much.

I have a feeling I'll just end up sitting here watching You Tube videos lol.  Been watching on ways to help improve my content, gain viewers, etc.  I really want to have people like my videos. I enjoy doing them so much, I just want people to appreciate what I do.  It would be nice to think that there are several people out there that like watching what I put out there. 

ULTA HAUL!!!

Yes I did!  I went to Ulta and got a whole bunch of stuff!  I'll be posting a video of everything I bought tomorrow, well everything minus the Reebok Nanos I got for Crossfitting lol.  I did no go over them.  So I'm not going to post much on what I bought today.  If you are really interested, go check out the video tomorrow.  I could always use more viewers and subscribers lol.

I will post the one big thing I went to Ulta to buy, and I got it. The Lorac Mega Pro 3 Palette.  Here it is: 

Nice, isn't it!  I swatched a couple of the colors and they are nice.  I will dive into them tomorrow, either for work, or for church.

I had a bit of a splurge eating wise this evening. Nothing to much, but a little bit.  It was kind of nice. I think everyone should lighten up a little but from time to time.  I'm planning on getting a workout in tomorrow.  Probably weights at home.  I'd like to practice pullups, and get some glute training in too.  And maybe I might just do some bench pressing too.  I need to practice double unders.  If I could have done double unders I could have RXed the WOD on Thur. But oh well.  I'll get there. I'm also gonna practice toes to bar.  I want to do those so bad I can taste it.

I really don't want to work Sun, Mon and Tue then go to that stupid meeting on Wed.  Its gonna SUCK.  I hope I can hit Crossfit on Mon and Thus this week.  I miss when I don't get to go.  I just feel better when i go on a regular basis.

I finally got up to double digit numbers of subscribers on my You Tube channel.  Now I just need to get up to the magic number of 50.  When I hit 50, I'm going to go a giveaway.  Some makeup, something for fitness. I'm gonna narrow it down once I get closer to 50.  So keep that in mind.  My You Tube Channel is Barbells and Beauty just like my blog, in case you want to see the videos, and subscribe.  You might be a winner!

I'll chat more later.  Buy!

Well that video was a total fail.

I filmed a video of a review of the Tarte Amazonian Clay foundation   Here it is.

But when I began the filming, I had the camera on the wrong setting, and the picture was grainy and shitty.  So that was 20 mins of my life I won't be getting back.  At least I figured it out before I started editing.  Maybe I'll film it another day.

I got my Kat Von D palette today. I'm going to swatch it today and put it up later today or tomorrow.

I finally got to go to Crossfit tonight.  It felt wonderful!  I miss it when I do go for a few days.  Next week will be crap.  I have stupid crap and classes at work that will be interfere with my days off, and with going to Crossfit. I freaking hate that.  I hope to go 2 days next week. Then maybe I can actually get to my 3 days a week I'm gonna go for.

That's about it for me today.

Why am I so tired today, oh, that's right.

I am so freaking tired today and I couldn't figure out why.  I slept ok, had a nice nap, cause I'm working tonight.  But I still feel like I could sleep another 3 hour.  Then the cramping started.  That's right.   It that dreaded time of the month. Or in my case every 3 months thanks to my birth control pills I take for peri-menopause symptoms.   But OMG.  I have the energy of a sloth.  A tired sloth at that.  Good lord!

I did a little ordering last night.  Ordered more Morphe eye shadows. And I got this!

The Kat Von D Metals eye shadow palette.  OMG!  Its so pretty! Can't wait to get it and try it all out!

Working the next two nights. And thanks to all sorts of other things going on, I won't get to Crossfit until Thur.  Sigh. I might have been able to go today,but man I'd have to really pray everything works out today, and I don't think that's gonna happen.

I think I'll film a new review today.  I'll review this Tarte foundation.

I've had it for a while, used it quite a bit. But not for a full 12 hour shift, so hey, why not not?
So I'd better make my phone calls, and then set up for a new video.   Chat later!

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I got a new ride!!

Yep, I traded in my 2015 Jeep Renegade, which I did like, for a 2017 GMC Acadia. I wanted something with either 4 wheel drive or AWD for driving to and from work this winter.  After driving about 5 different vehicles, a couple more than once, this is what I picked.

I like the color, love how its laid out on the interior.  Over all very very happy!

I filmed a new video, and when I was editing, it really sucked.  So I'm gonna have to refilm it.  Oh well.  Live and learn I guess.  This next one will be better, I hope lol.

Have to work the next two nights.  Hope it goes as smoothly as it did last night.  It was a good night last night overall.

I'll be doing a new video on Wed, and posting on Thur.  A new review of a different foundation.  Still looking for that holy grail foundation.  I'll find it sooner or later.

I'm heading up to the city on Fri, Des Moines is as city as it gets for me lol.   I'm going to do a haul at Ulta, and then when I get home, I'll film what I got.  So I've got a couple more videos planned for the week.  I have no idea what all I'll be getting, but I'm planning on spending a couple hundred in Ulta. So it might be a more impressive haul video.

Maybe I'll pick up the new Anastasia palette that's suppose  to be in stores by then!  Lorac has a few interesting things, as does tarte.  Decisions decision.

I had to miss Crossfit today since I was picking up and signing the paperwork for my new ride!  I guess that's ok.  I'll go tomorrow and Thur.  Maybe Sat morning if I feel like it.

Well, that's about all I have right now.  Post later.

My review of IT Cosmetics CC Cream

I decided to wear it for work, and really give it a good review.  Had a small chink in my plans, as when I was getting ready for work, I got a call from the hospital letting me know I was on call as it was a low census day. So I didn't get to wear it for the normal 14+ hours I would have worn it for a nights work.  Oh well.

This is what it looks like.

It sells on Ulta for $38.   I know you can order it also off the IT Cosmetics website, and I'm fairly soon that you can also buy it from QVC.  Might be able to get it at a better deal off QVC so check it out. 

I put it on the right side of my face with a damp beauty blender, and the left with a rounded top foundation brush.  I think I liked they way it looked with the blender slightly better, but there wasn't much difference in the end.

I checked it out after about 5-6 hours.  It has settled just a little but in my forehead wrinkles, and it fell off my nose into the crease that starts the smile lines.  Now I won't count that against this CC cream, cause for the last couple weeks EVERYTHING I put on my nose, falls off into that crease.  I have no idea why.  I need to maybe switch up my skin care and see if that's it or if this is just some weird change thanks to agings. I am 46 after all.

I then checked it after 8+ hours, and not much had changed.  A little settling into the crease right under my mouth on my chin, but nothing else really happened.  It lasted the 8+ hours pretty well.  I do think it felt just a little heavy on my face, but I really think anything would have felt heavy on my face yesterday.

I filmed a video of this review, with check ins throughout the night.  I'll leave a link here if you want to watch it. My It Cosmetics CC Cream Video

I did give this CC Cream a thumbs up.  It covered well, lasted pretty good, and didn't settle into my lines any worse than anything else I own.  I've got wrinkles, and foundation settles into them. Just a fact of life.

So that's it. Review of the It Cosmetics CC Cream. Hope you enjoyed it.

Happy October everyone

Hope this month gives you everything you need.  For me, slightly cooler weather.  I love summer, but its nice to have the windows open and the air conditioner off.  My hubby is hot blooded and he always wants it so much colder than I do. Now that he's home all the time, our electric bill is so much higher cause he is running the air so much more than I would.

I posted a new video today. I'm going to quit posting the videos to my written blog. No one is watching it from here.   I'll post links if so if you are interested, you can click the link.  Here's the one I just posted a few mins ago. I talk about restarting my fitness journey, and how you can start yours.
My Fitness Journey

I'm planning on getting some new palettes in the next couple weeks and probably a new foundation or two.  I'm on the hunt for the Holy Grail of foundations, and I'm not having much success.   I can find ones that look good for a few hours, but not the 12+ I need them to.  Or they look really good for 12+ hours on part of my face, and fall off my nose, or settle in my wrinkles on my forehead.  It just kind of sucks, this aging crap.

I've got to go to work tonight. I really hope things have quieted down some.  I know the flu season has started, and the allergy season is in full swing.  We have had a rash of people with shortness of breath.  A lot of them have the beginning of pneumonia already so a few days in the hospital is in order.  I hope its quiet. I'd like a nice quiet night.

I think tonight I'll take a book and hope I can actually get a chance to read a chapter or two while I eat.  The last couple weeks I eat my food in a hurry while I try to catch up on charting.  It would be nice to get to have a little down time for a change.

I hope the rest of your day goes wonderful. I've got about 90 min before I get ready for work.  Hope its a good shift.

When will I ever get more viewers??

I know its silly, but I want more viewers on my You Tube channel.  I know its only been 2 weeks, and my videos are pretty low quality, and probably not that good, but I would have thought I'd have double digit subscribers by now. Like 10-12 subscribers.  Was stuck at 6 for a long time, now I have 8.   My average view is only about 10 views per video.    Been trying to improve my quality of my videos, editing more.   Trying to post a few videos each week. But still.  Just 8 subscribers.

I am not comparing myself to the big dogs in the beauty world on You Tube, the Jeffree Stars the Manny Muas, the Jaclyn Hills, with their million subscribers and hundreds of thousands of views, but is it to much to ask to get 30-50 subscribers and 25 average views?   I hope to get there in time.  I'd really like to get better equipment, maybe a better camcorder, some lighting, etc, but I can't even think about all that until I have some real viewers.  It would be silly to spend that much money for 8 people lol.

I have to go back to work tomorrow.  I enjoy my work, I really do, but man sometimes it would be nice to just sit back and not have to go to work ever again.  Just go to Crossfit, make my little videos, blog, read, spend time with my hubby. It would really be nice.  Oh, I'd probably work a few days a month, just to keep myself busy, but not this 3 day a week.   Maybe tomorrow night won't be bad.  Maybe the patient census will be down a little, or maybe they won't be all such heavy care and it won't be to bad.  I hope so. 

I'm so sore from Crossfit this week.  I hit it 3 times this week, and WOW!  My shoulders and abs are so sore.  I can't laugh without it hurting.  Oh its not that bad, but I did forget how sore one can get from working out hard and heavy, and it really is a good feeling!  I can't wait to go back on Mon.

Not much going on right now with me.  Picked up a couple things while shopping today.  Not much, some brow stuff and a highlighter.  Also been using my new juicer some.  Try to make juice everyday. Try to make it with something new everyday.  Today was 2 carrots, those big jumbo ones, an apple and half a cucumber.  Had a half leftover. Wish it had been a whole one.  But overall it was pretty good.

Guess that's all for tonight. Hope to post more tomorrow before I go to work.

Lipsence Review

Thought I'd post this here just in case

I feel like a bad nurse sometimes

I just have been feeling  like kind of a bad nurse.  I just don't have a lot of empathy for a few of the patients we have had lately.  When you have drank yourself into severe health problems, and keep drinking after some major health problems, like strokes and heart attacks, or you are a meth head and keep using, even after multiple ER visits, and hospital stays, I just get tired of seeing it.  We've had a string of this here in the last month or so.  Oh, I still take care of them to the best of my ability, but I will admit, I think and even mutter to myself as I walk back to the nurses station that dude, you did this to yourself so don't bitch to me cause I can't do what you want cause I have 4 other patients who need me too, and didn't fuck themselves up.   Doesn't make me feel like I'm a good nurse.  I know every nurse who has to deal with this sort of thing probably feels this way from time to time, but still.  As a Christian, and a nurse, I should try to be less judgmental.  Probably need to pray on that.  At least so far, I still go in with a smile, do my best to care for them, and keep the muttering to myself.

As for the rest of my life, I'm gonna go to Crossfit tonight. Need it to work off my stress of the last couple nights.  Nothing like lifting some heavy weights over my head, and throwing a heavy ball up against the wall to make me feel better.  And maybe get the scale to moving again. Had a bit of a diet fall out over the weekend, but the scale thankfully didn't really change.

I'm gonna be doing a video tonight of the new stuff I got recently.  Gonna use my new video camera!  Can't wait to really get into using it. It came yesterday and I really have not gotten to use it.  Just a quick turn on and look at the picture on the screen. So today is gonna be the real test.  Look for a new video either later tonight or early tomorrow.  Probably later tonight.

Got new stuff today, but WAAAA, I have to work

Worked last night, it was another rougher night, and then today, while I slept, I got stuff. I got my new juicer, and my new video camera.  Man, I want to play with them both, but dang it, in a little while, I'll be getting ready to go to work again. 

So tomorrow, I'll be filming again, but this time, using my new camcorder. I can't wait!  I hope it improves the quality of my videos.   I would love to actually get more viewers.  Guess it will happen if and when it happens.   I'm enjoying the filming and editing.  So that's the main thing.

Gonna be a short blog today. Like I said, I will be getting ready for work in less than an hour, and well I want to scroll through Instagram before I go to work.  And maybe look through my book collection and take one in case I get a few mins to sit and read. 

I've got to decide what to film tomorrow. I'm thinking of doing a review on Lipscense lipsticks.   But maybe I'll get my Colourpop order and can show them all off.  Decisions, decisions.

I ordered a new camera, and more makeup lol

I decided that cause I'm really enjoying my filming You Tube videos, I just ordered a cheaper camcorder.  My hubby dug out our really REALLY old one, I'm talking it still used tapes, the small ones, but still tapes for crying out loud lol.   Works great still, but I have no way of hooking up the camera to my laptop for editing and posting.  Oh, I could hook it up to out dvd recorder, make a dvd, then burn it onto my laptop, then edit and post, but wow.  I'm not getting any money to post stuff on You Tube, so that's way to much work.  I'll just use my webcam, which isn't the best quality, but hey, its better than nothing.

While I was at it, I ordered a BH cosmetics palette that has eye shadow and blushes. Along with more brushes.  I really should just do a big splurge on myself and get some Sigma or Morphe or MAC brushes.  Maybe I'll do that when I hit the 10lb weight loss mark.  So I've got a while.  These are ok brushes. I just want more when I'm waiting for brushes to dry when I wash them, which I should do more often.   Here's the palette I ordered.

I hope it is as good as it looks.  BH Cosmetics has a pretty good reputation, and I've gotten a palette from them before, so I think I'll be pleased.

I was a lazy bum today.  Woke up way to early thanks to a phone call from the nursing home I still pick up a shift or two once in a while for.  Some computer issue, I use to do 99% of the tech problems there.  I was bad, and I didn't call back.  For all they know, I was sleeping due to a night shift I worked.  Got up for a few mins, then went back to sleep for a couple more hours.  Then of course the Nascar race was on, so I watched that.  Didn't like the outcome, or the winner. Oh well, at least the racers I really don't like didn't win, so I guess its ok.

 I'm filming a new video tonight, a review of Loreal Infallible  foundation.  I'll preview it right now, I'm not a big fan of it.  Settled into lines after a few hours, and wore off my nose pretty bad.  Go to my You Tube channel later tonight, or heck anytime and watch my videos.  Just remember, the quality of them will be going up really soon, so that's a very good thing. 

Hubby is sitting here watching a wrestling pay per view.  We have the WWE network, don't ask, and he watched ALL the PPV wresting stuff. Use to be a few times a year then once a month, now ever freaking 2 weeks this crap is on.  He knows its all preplanned, but it is impressive to see the people do the moves. They are athletic moves if nothing else.

My juicer will be coming on Tue. To bad I'm working Tue night, so I won't get much chance to mess with it. Oh well, I'll have a few days off after Tue to play with it and get it going and hope make some juices that taste good.

Tomorrow is Crossfit then work.  I hope its ok.  Work I mean, not Crossfit.  Work has been pretty hectic lately and I want it to be smooth.  Is it wrong to ask for a nice smooth shift without a bunch of crap? And as a nurse, I mean both literal and figurative crap.  I don't think so.

So tonight, I'll stay up late, then sleep way in tomorrow, to get ready to stay up all night tomorrow.   Maybe there will be a good movie on Netflix I can watch.

Some ramblings on fitness and beauty

I posted this last night, but didn't get around to posting it on my blog until now.  What can I say, I was tired.  Hope you enjoy my ramblings, and if you are so inclined please subscribe.

Cheat day, how yummie

My hubby and I decided to have a cheat day.  I've been doing a No Sugar challenge for most of the month.  Some members of my Crossfit box joined this challenge, and I was one of them.  But today, my daughter is home from collage, and I went up with her to get my hair done, and we all went out to eat.   Then today, we just are having a "screw it' kind of day and we both want a little candy.  so that's what we're going to do.  One day won't kill me, won't kill my healthy eating, and well, I just want some.

I also picked up a couple new things at Wal Mart.  A couple baskets to arrange my makeup in.  My collection is growing everyday it seems.   Which is more than ok in my mind lol.  And I also got two things from Physician's Formula.  Its been a decade or more since I got something from this brand.  Way back when, I tried something from them, I wasn't as impressed.  But in recent years the "drugstore" brands have really been stepping up their games and making big improvements on  most of the products they put out.  I've read and seen good things from them, so I put a little money out to try them out.  I got these two things.

I tried them out when I got home.  The bronzer is nice, but I really need to give it a go before I already have a bronzer on.  But I think its going to be a nice dose of color without being to dark.
But this highlighter. WOW!  I can't wait to wear it by itself.  The highlighter I had on was a very light one, one that was very subtle. but this gave me a great pop of light.   So I do think I'll wear it all day tomorrow and do a review of it.

I tried a new foundation today.  I was going to film a full review, but decided not to cause when I get my hair done,  I always seem like I get some foundation wiped off my forehead, and a little wiped off when I brush the little small hairs off my face.  So reviewing this foundation when I know I've wiped some off, some got damp from the washing of my hair, wouldn't be fair.  And I do want to be fair.  And that's a good thing cause if I reviewed this right now, it wouldn't be a good review lol.   Maybe tomorrow I'll put it on for church and leave it on all day and see how it does.

And tomorrow, it will be back on the healthy eating lifestyle.  I can tell I feel so much better when I eat healthy.  I have more energy, I feel better, my skin looks better.  And I've lost nearly 3lbs in the not quite 3 weeks.  Which is amazing for me as I usually struggle to lose a pound a month. 

Monday will be Crossfit day for me, and I can't wait.  Only getting to go one time last week was kind of a bummer.  I think this week I can go Mon, Wed and Fri, and that will be great!

I need to get my lazy ass moving again

This has not been a great week for me fitness wise. I only went to Crossfit one time, then I totally messed up my eating a few times.  Cripes, time to get back on track.

I'm going to lose one more pound this month. So I need to get back to Crossfit 3 times next week, and get my eating back under control.  I feel better when I eat healthier.   But I've got to admit, unhealthy food sometimes just tastes GOOD!   So I need to get to where I eat healthy 85% of the time, and 15% of the time, treat myself with the yummy stuff that tastes so good.

I need to decide what I can reward myself with.  I was thinking of some new palettes.  But really, I just buy the makeup I want.  I need something bigger than makeup.  Maybe new shoes, or maybe new fitness stuff.  

I know LUSH!  I could splurge on stuff from Lush.   There stuff is so awesome!  

Ok, so next payday, if I hit my goal of losing one more pound by Oct 4, cause I started Sept 5, I will go splurge on stuff at Lush.  Cause I have a few things from Lush, but I've never really just splurged on it.   Maybe I need to really make it a big splurge like at least $75 on it.

So as you can see from my previous blog postings, I've posted a couple new You Tube videos.  I do wish I could get a few more viewers, but hey, its only been a week so I guess its just going to be slow going.  I like thinking that people watch and like what I put out there.   Just would be nice if I could get up with more subscribers. I'd love to go a give away when I hit 100 subscribers.  And it would be something nice.  A new palette or blush collection.  Maybe a combo.   A fitness dvd, makeup and a sample of protein powder. 

I think that is a great idea.  If I can get 100 subscribers to my You Tube channel, I'll do a give away of some nice stuff.  So if you are interested in getting stuff, subscribe lol.