When will I ever get more viewers??

I know its silly, but I want more viewers on my You Tube channel.  I know its only been 2 weeks, and my videos are pretty low quality, and probably not that good, but I would have thought I'd have double digit subscribers by now. Like 10-12 subscribers.  Was stuck at 6 for a long time, now I have 8.   My average view is only about 10 views per video.    Been trying to improve my quality of my videos, editing more.   Trying to post a few videos each week. But still.  Just 8 subscribers.

I am not comparing myself to the big dogs in the beauty world on You Tube, the Jeffree Stars the Manny Muas, the Jaclyn Hills, with their million subscribers and hundreds of thousands of views, but is it to much to ask to get 30-50 subscribers and 25 average views?   I hope to get there in time.  I'd really like to get better equipment, maybe a better camcorder, some lighting, etc, but I can't even think about all that until I have some real viewers.  It would be silly to spend that much money for 8 people lol.

I have to go back to work tomorrow.  I enjoy my work, I really do, but man sometimes it would be nice to just sit back and not have to go to work ever again.  Just go to Crossfit, make my little videos, blog, read, spend time with my hubby. It would really be nice.  Oh, I'd probably work a few days a month, just to keep myself busy, but not this 3 day a week.   Maybe tomorrow night won't be bad.  Maybe the patient census will be down a little, or maybe they won't be all such heavy care and it won't be to bad.  I hope so. 

I'm so sore from Crossfit this week.  I hit it 3 times this week, and WOW!  My shoulders and abs are so sore.  I can't laugh without it hurting.  Oh its not that bad, but I did forget how sore one can get from working out hard and heavy, and it really is a good feeling!  I can't wait to go back on Mon.

Not much going on right now with me.  Picked up a couple things while shopping today.  Not much, some brow stuff and a highlighter.  Also been using my new juicer some.  Try to make juice everyday. Try to make it with something new everyday.  Today was 2 carrots, those big jumbo ones, an apple and half a cucumber.  Had a half leftover. Wish it had been a whole one.  But overall it was pretty good.

Guess that's all for tonight. Hope to post more tomorrow before I go to work.

Lipsence Review

Thought I'd post this here just in case

I feel like a bad nurse sometimes

I just have been feeling  like kind of a bad nurse.  I just don't have a lot of empathy for a few of the patients we have had lately.  When you have drank yourself into severe health problems, and keep drinking after some major health problems, like strokes and heart attacks, or you are a meth head and keep using, even after multiple ER visits, and hospital stays, I just get tired of seeing it.  We've had a string of this here in the last month or so.  Oh, I still take care of them to the best of my ability, but I will admit, I think and even mutter to myself as I walk back to the nurses station that dude, you did this to yourself so don't bitch to me cause I can't do what you want cause I have 4 other patients who need me too, and didn't fuck themselves up.   Doesn't make me feel like I'm a good nurse.  I know every nurse who has to deal with this sort of thing probably feels this way from time to time, but still.  As a Christian, and a nurse, I should try to be less judgmental.  Probably need to pray on that.  At least so far, I still go in with a smile, do my best to care for them, and keep the muttering to myself.

As for the rest of my life, I'm gonna go to Crossfit tonight. Need it to work off my stress of the last couple nights.  Nothing like lifting some heavy weights over my head, and throwing a heavy ball up against the wall to make me feel better.  And maybe get the scale to moving again. Had a bit of a diet fall out over the weekend, but the scale thankfully didn't really change.

I'm gonna be doing a video tonight of the new stuff I got recently.  Gonna use my new video camera!  Can't wait to really get into using it. It came yesterday and I really have not gotten to use it.  Just a quick turn on and look at the picture on the screen. So today is gonna be the real test.  Look for a new video either later tonight or early tomorrow.  Probably later tonight.

Got new stuff today, but WAAAA, I have to work

Worked last night, it was another rougher night, and then today, while I slept, I got stuff. I got my new juicer, and my new video camera.  Man, I want to play with them both, but dang it, in a little while, I'll be getting ready to go to work again. 

So tomorrow, I'll be filming again, but this time, using my new camcorder. I can't wait!  I hope it improves the quality of my videos.   I would love to actually get more viewers.  Guess it will happen if and when it happens.   I'm enjoying the filming and editing.  So that's the main thing.

Gonna be a short blog today. Like I said, I will be getting ready for work in less than an hour, and well I want to scroll through Instagram before I go to work.  And maybe look through my book collection and take one in case I get a few mins to sit and read. 

I've got to decide what to film tomorrow. I'm thinking of doing a review on Lipscense lipsticks.   But maybe I'll get my Colourpop order and can show them all off.  Decisions, decisions.

I ordered a new camera, and more makeup lol

I decided that cause I'm really enjoying my filming You Tube videos, I just ordered a cheaper camcorder.  My hubby dug out our really REALLY old one, I'm talking it still used tapes, the small ones, but still tapes for crying out loud lol.   Works great still, but I have no way of hooking up the camera to my laptop for editing and posting.  Oh, I could hook it up to out dvd recorder, make a dvd, then burn it onto my laptop, then edit and post, but wow.  I'm not getting any money to post stuff on You Tube, so that's way to much work.  I'll just use my webcam, which isn't the best quality, but hey, its better than nothing.

While I was at it, I ordered a BH cosmetics palette that has eye shadow and blushes. Along with more brushes.  I really should just do a big splurge on myself and get some Sigma or Morphe or MAC brushes.  Maybe I'll do that when I hit the 10lb weight loss mark.  So I've got a while.  These are ok brushes. I just want more when I'm waiting for brushes to dry when I wash them, which I should do more often.   Here's the palette I ordered.

I hope it is as good as it looks.  BH Cosmetics has a pretty good reputation, and I've gotten a palette from them before, so I think I'll be pleased.

I was a lazy bum today.  Woke up way to early thanks to a phone call from the nursing home I still pick up a shift or two once in a while for.  Some computer issue, I use to do 99% of the tech problems there.  I was bad, and I didn't call back.  For all they know, I was sleeping due to a night shift I worked.  Got up for a few mins, then went back to sleep for a couple more hours.  Then of course the Nascar race was on, so I watched that.  Didn't like the outcome, or the winner. Oh well, at least the racers I really don't like didn't win, so I guess its ok.

 I'm filming a new video tonight, a review of Loreal Infallible  foundation.  I'll preview it right now, I'm not a big fan of it.  Settled into lines after a few hours, and wore off my nose pretty bad.  Go to my You Tube channel later tonight, or heck anytime and watch my videos.  Just remember, the quality of them will be going up really soon, so that's a very good thing. 

Hubby is sitting here watching a wrestling pay per view.  We have the WWE network, don't ask, and he watched ALL the PPV wresting stuff. Use to be a few times a year then once a month, now ever freaking 2 weeks this crap is on.  He knows its all preplanned, but it is impressive to see the people do the moves. They are athletic moves if nothing else.

My juicer will be coming on Tue. To bad I'm working Tue night, so I won't get much chance to mess with it. Oh well, I'll have a few days off after Tue to play with it and get it going and hope make some juices that taste good.

Tomorrow is Crossfit then work.  I hope its ok.  Work I mean, not Crossfit.  Work has been pretty hectic lately and I want it to be smooth.  Is it wrong to ask for a nice smooth shift without a bunch of crap? And as a nurse, I mean both literal and figurative crap.  I don't think so.

So tonight, I'll stay up late, then sleep way in tomorrow, to get ready to stay up all night tomorrow.   Maybe there will be a good movie on Netflix I can watch.

Some ramblings on fitness and beauty

I posted this last night, but didn't get around to posting it on my blog until now.  What can I say, I was tired.  Hope you enjoy my ramblings, and if you are so inclined please subscribe.

Cheat day, how yummie

My hubby and I decided to have a cheat day.  I've been doing a No Sugar challenge for most of the month.  Some members of my Crossfit box joined this challenge, and I was one of them.  But today, my daughter is home from collage, and I went up with her to get my hair done, and we all went out to eat.   Then today, we just are having a "screw it' kind of day and we both want a little candy.  so that's what we're going to do.  One day won't kill me, won't kill my healthy eating, and well, I just want some.

I also picked up a couple new things at Wal Mart.  A couple baskets to arrange my makeup in.  My collection is growing everyday it seems.   Which is more than ok in my mind lol.  And I also got two things from Physician's Formula.  Its been a decade or more since I got something from this brand.  Way back when, I tried something from them, I wasn't as impressed.  But in recent years the "drugstore" brands have really been stepping up their games and making big improvements on  most of the products they put out.  I've read and seen good things from them, so I put a little money out to try them out.  I got these two things.

I tried them out when I got home.  The bronzer is nice, but I really need to give it a go before I already have a bronzer on.  But I think its going to be a nice dose of color without being to dark.
But this highlighter. WOW!  I can't wait to wear it by itself.  The highlighter I had on was a very light one, one that was very subtle. but this gave me a great pop of light.   So I do think I'll wear it all day tomorrow and do a review of it.

I tried a new foundation today.  I was going to film a full review, but decided not to cause when I get my hair done,  I always seem like I get some foundation wiped off my forehead, and a little wiped off when I brush the little small hairs off my face.  So reviewing this foundation when I know I've wiped some off, some got damp from the washing of my hair, wouldn't be fair.  And I do want to be fair.  And that's a good thing cause if I reviewed this right now, it wouldn't be a good review lol.   Maybe tomorrow I'll put it on for church and leave it on all day and see how it does.

And tomorrow, it will be back on the healthy eating lifestyle.  I can tell I feel so much better when I eat healthy.  I have more energy, I feel better, my skin looks better.  And I've lost nearly 3lbs in the not quite 3 weeks.  Which is amazing for me as I usually struggle to lose a pound a month. 

Monday will be Crossfit day for me, and I can't wait.  Only getting to go one time last week was kind of a bummer.  I think this week I can go Mon, Wed and Fri, and that will be great!

I need to get my lazy ass moving again

This has not been a great week for me fitness wise. I only went to Crossfit one time, then I totally messed up my eating a few times.  Cripes, time to get back on track.

I'm going to lose one more pound this month. So I need to get back to Crossfit 3 times next week, and get my eating back under control.  I feel better when I eat healthier.   But I've got to admit, unhealthy food sometimes just tastes GOOD!   So I need to get to where I eat healthy 85% of the time, and 15% of the time, treat myself with the yummy stuff that tastes so good.

I need to decide what I can reward myself with.  I was thinking of some new palettes.  But really, I just buy the makeup I want.  I need something bigger than makeup.  Maybe new shoes, or maybe new fitness stuff.  

I know LUSH!  I could splurge on stuff from Lush.   There stuff is so awesome!  

Ok, so next payday, if I hit my goal of losing one more pound by Oct 4, cause I started Sept 5, I will go splurge on stuff at Lush.  Cause I have a few things from Lush, but I've never really just splurged on it.   Maybe I need to really make it a big splurge like at least $75 on it.

So as you can see from my previous blog postings, I've posted a couple new You Tube videos.  I do wish I could get a few more viewers, but hey, its only been a week so I guess its just going to be slow going.  I like thinking that people watch and like what I put out there.   Just would be nice if I could get up with more subscribers. I'd love to go a give away when I hit 100 subscribers.  And it would be something nice.  A new palette or blush collection.  Maybe a combo.   A fitness dvd, makeup and a sample of protein powder. 

I think that is a great idea.  If I can get 100 subscribers to my You Tube channel, I'll do a give away of some nice stuff.  So if you are interested in getting stuff, subscribe lol.

Palette collection

Mini Ulta haul and first Impression of Revlon Colorstay foundation

I just got this filmed and I hope you enjoy it.

What a night, and a first impression of Makeup Forever stick foundation

I was right when I thought it would be a rough night. It was in spades.  Long, busy, with a patient that decided she thought breathing was getting to hard to do on her own.  Ended up on a ventilator at the end of my shift.  We hope that in a day or two when she can rest up and let the antibiotics work, she'll be able to come off the vent and be ok.  I hope so.

I've got 4 days off. Well I picked up a half shift at the nursing home I do a little PRN work at tomorrow, but for the most part, I have 4 days off.  I think I'm going to need them.  I was just so freaking tired today.  I mean just tired, that bone tired, have trouble staying awake while I ate breakfast tired.  So I was bad and skipped Crossfit today.  I do feel bad about it, but I think I needed the rest.


I wore a new foundation last night.  The Make Up Forever Ultra HD Cover stick foundation.  Its a lot more expensive than my last foundation, but I want to cover both high end and pricier stuff.  Its $43 on Sephora when I picked it up a week or so ago. Here's what it looks like.

I had it on about 15 hours, between my almost 12 hour day plus the 40 min drive to and 40 min drive home for work.  I only saw a little settling into the lines on my forehead, and that was probably due to my facial expressions during the night. See the first paragraph.  Anyway, it also stayed on pretty good, or so I thought when I looked this morning.  Of course, I must admit, that due to be being really tired, I didn't give it much of a look before washing my makeup off and going to bed.  Maybe next week I'll have a better review.   Maybe on Sun evening I'll film a full review.

I'll be posting a new You Tube video today.  I had one partially filmed, but when editing it, I thought it looked pretty crappy, so I'm going to redo it, and maybe find a better place to film. 

I hope everyone is doing well, I hope you all have a great weekend, and hope your lives are filled with love and laughter. 

One more night, just one more horrid night

I've had 2 not so good nights of work.  We have one person there who is only there due to his crap choices in life.  I mean when you drink yourself into a stroke, then still drink like a fish, I just don't have much sympathy for you.  Then be a total ass, while in the hospital, I really don't.  You're little " I'm sorry" while we clean you up, again, from pulling your IV out, again, doesn't go real far.

Just one more night then I get 4 off, and I can't wait!  Gonna be a long night cause I don't think any people will be going home today.  Had a couple that should be transferred to Des Moines but I don't know if the docs will go with that.  I mean one guy NEEDS to go. He really needs specialists.

And we've got a couple other surgeries being admitted. OH, and not enough help.  GREAT!  Better put on my really comfy shoes.

I tried a new foundation today.  Revlon Colorstay.  It actually lasted. Here it is. Its around $7.00  Of course I got the lightest shade I could, and it was a pretty good match

I snapped a pic of what I looked like when I got home from having it on for 14 hours

Not to shabby I'd say!  I've got Colourpop on my eyes just in case anyone cares, and it lasted the entire shift as well. Impressed!  Time to buy more Colourpop eye shadow I'd say.

I'll do a full review soon up on You Tube.

As for my fitness journey. Well I've lost almost 3lbs!  In less than 3 weeks.  How amazing is that. Guess eating healthier and going to Crossfit actually works. Imagine that.  Who would think that eating less shit food, and working out means you lose weight.   No magic pill needed.


I will be able to blog and post more You Tube videos over the next few days.  I like working 3 in a row cause it gives me more days off, but dang, it doesn't leave me much time to do anything but work, sleep shower and eat before work. Glad I had a few mins to write something up. 

Hope you all like what I had to ramble about.

Hi ho, Hi ho, its off to Crossfit I go, then work

So I'm really looking forward to the first half, the second, not as much.  I like my job, I really do, but well, here lately we've had some really pretty sick people, and half of them, its due to the shit they have done to themselves.  The meth heads, the alcoholics, the smokers with lung problems( they still smoke)  It does just make me think "wtf people why are you ruining your body"   Esp to the kid in his mid 20s strung out on drugs.  God, I hope he gets the help he needs. He won't make it to 30 if he doesn't.

Seeing that sure makes me want to go to Crossfit, eat a healthier diet, take care of this body, cause until cloning and brain transfers are a reality, this body is it for me. 

And on that note, I've now lost (drum roll please)  2.2lbs this month. Ok, before you all go "so what"  I struggle to lose a pound a month.  But this no -sugar challenge I've been on with some of my Crossfit group, it seems to be working,  And we didn't even start it until after Labor day.  So in reality, its only been 2 weeks!  AMAZING!!!

Who would have thought that working out, and eating healthier could help you lose weight???  About 75% of the USA really.  We are all still looking for that magic pill, the quick 20 min workout that doesn't involve sweat or hardly moving.  The ability to eat whatever you want, in the right combo of other food, and magically lose weight without cutting calories. Doesn't seem to work, does it.  But cut out something that is not healthy for you at all, who really NEEDS processed sugar, increase you veggie intake everyday ( and I've not even managed everyday) and workout 2-3 times a week, and BOOM, a couple pounds gone.  I even feel a little slimmer. 

I tried out that GlamGlo facial mask last night.  I liked it.  I want to try out a couple more.  It really made my skin feel so soft and smooth even this morning. Man, why does that stuff have to be so expensive???

I also ordered some stuff from Ulta over the weekend.  Most of it was paid for via my Ulta points. Been saving them up for a while now.  Ok, so it was only like 4 things I ordered, but hey, that's pretty good for me.  It should get here on Thur, so I'll probably do a Mini Haul from Ulta video on Thur when it gets here.

Well its about time to get something to eat, get my work bag packed up, and think about my last will cause Crossfit will probably kill me off today.  Hey, that's not such a bad thing. I wouldn't have to go to work if I'm dead lol!

A review of Rimmel Lasting Finish Foundation

This is what it looks like. You can get it on Amazon for about $7.00 which is a great price. I found it at my local Wal Mart for about the same price.  No hating cause I shop at Wal Mart. In my neck of Iowa, its WalMart or nothing.   I wish there was a Target close by, but oh well.

Ok, back to my review.  I put it on about 10:30 this morning and after 8 hours of wear, it lasted pretty good. I have normal to combo skin. My nose still gets a little oily as does my chin and forehead, but they are not as bad as my nose.   Its a light medium coverage, but fairly buildable.  I put one layer on my forehead, cause I have bangs and don't need as much coverage there.  I put a full layer on my cheeks, and a light second layer.  I've got some freckles and a little redness I want to cover there.
On my chin and nose, just one layer, then whatever was left over on my beauty blender after my second layer on my cheeks.

I also found that my other makeup applied well over the top.  It didn't move around to much after I set it with a powder.  I pretty much always set my foundations with powder no matter what.  But my concealer, I used Tarte's Shape Tape today, and blush applied well on top of this foundation.

I found that it didn't settle into my fine lines for quite sometime.  Every foundation I have ever tried settles a little, esp in my smile lines,  but I smile A LOT so that's ok.  This foundation didn't settle much, and I'm quite happy with that aspect of it.

It did get just a little worn off around my nose. Not to bad, and some of that may be due to my nose being just a little drippy thanks to allergy season, and I've wiped it a time or two.  So I won't knock it down to much cause I probably wiped it off.

I think this is a nice inexpensive foundation that I will use again.  There are I think 7 shades on Amazon, I wish they had more.  Not much in the way for darker skin people out there.  That needs to change.  The lightest shade was a good fit for me, as I'm quite pale skinned.

All in all, I'd recommend this foundation for most people.  It seems to last for several hours.  I need to wear it on a day I work a 12 hour shift to see how it stands up after 14 hours on my face.  But for the 8+ I had it on today, I'm happy with the way it looks.  So if you have ever thought about trying this out, or you are on the lookout for a new inexpensive foundation, give this a try.

My baby Sephora haul

  So I did a video today of the things I picked up today at Sephora.  Hope someone enjoys it.

Long day at work, and look what I got!!!

I was on call Fri night.  So of course, I got called in.  The only good thing about it I got time and a half, but really I would have rather NOT worked overtime, esp for a bullshit reason.  The guy I was taking care of could have easily been on the floor not in the ICU unit.

Then I found out, that we had in the course of 2 days in our small hospital, 3 people with major health problems due to their alcoholism,  and 2 people strung out on meth.  One was only 25 years old.  He'll be lucky to get off it, and make it to 30. 

So, anyway, it was a long boring shift for me in the ICU babysitting this patient who didn't really need to be in the ICU.  Is he sick, hell yes, but he could have gotten just as good care on the floor with the nurses who were there.

Now onto better things.  I FINALLY got my Violet Voss Drenched Metals eye shadow pallet today.  I ordered it during the Labor Day sale, so I knew it would take a while to get it. And it came and its so pretty! 
Here it is!!

I can't wait to try it out! Going shopping tomorrow with my youngest for her birthday.  Might break this in tomorrow.

I also think I'll do a review of a foundation I've been trying out.  I've got a bunch of foundations and BB creams, but I'll pick one and do a review of it.  Might even try to video a review of it.  Might be interesting.

I'm gonna hit up Sephora tomorrow and pick up a few things, and I'm gonna do an order from Ulta. I've got a bunch of points to cash in so I'll get a bunch of stuff "for free" which is always awesome!

As for my fitness journey, well, this week was not good.  Working overtime cost me one Crossfit day.  And I've been to damn lazy to do anything at home.  I'm gonna get it in check next week.  I'm gonna hit Crossfit up 3 times and eat better. I've not made the best food choices this week.  Its all about making baby steps that will get me there. And as I make a few baby steps, maybe eventually I'll get to making toddler steps!

I think with my overtime money, and the check from a half shift I'm picking up next week at a nursing home I work PRN at, I'll buy some new clothes and maybe shoes.  I'm planning a shopping trip by myself so I can take my time and get what I want. 

So there it is. My rambling for the day.

I don't wanna go to work

As a few of you know I'm a nurse.  I work in a small hospital about a 40 min drive from my house.  I work 6pm til 6am.  I like the night shift being a night owl by nature.

I do enjoy being a nurse for the most part.  Some dealing with the rules of insurance and the bullshit of Medicare and Medicaid is crap.  And sometimes I do get tired of feeling like I care more about my patient's health than they do.  Hard to see the guy who uses drugs come in so dehydrated his urine is brown and thick.  Hard to see the woman who abuses her pain medications the State may take her kids away but she still uses them and ends up in the hospital again.  Hard to see the person morbidly obese with multiple problems still eat to much foods.

I'm not saying I'm the standard of health and I do everything perfect for my health. God knows I'm fat, and I eat to much, and I like to sit around to much.  But I'm trying to make changes.  I've increased my servings of fruit and more important, veggies I eat everyday.  Right now I'm in a No Processed Sugar challenge and doing ok in it.   I've also lost 2lbs in just over the week I've been on this challenge.   I've restarted Crossfit so I'm getting up and doing some exercise which feels pretty good.  I know I've got a long way to go, but I am trying.

I guess I'm just rambling on a little bit.  My main point is sometimes I'm not sure I want to be a nurse anymore.  Its hard.  It just is hard.  And I'm not sure how much longer I want to do that hard.  

I've got a now retired hubby who is home all the time after 27 years in the Air Force.  I'd like to be able to spend more time with him, and not be either at work, or sleeping half the day away.  I'd like to just get paid to stay at home and do nothing lol.  Guess that's not going to happen, so I'd better just think about which scrubs I'm going to wear today, and make sure I've got all the stuff I need in my bag.

Just a little intro

Enjoy, or I hope you do.

So I started a You Tube channel too

Same name as this blog.  I know, I'm crazy.  What can I say I like to talk lol.

Went to Crossfit last night before work.  Not sure if that was a good thing, or a bad thing.  I was so tired,  and sore, but I think getting up and moving around during the night helped keep me from being even more sore.

I got a little something to up my beauty game. 

Gonna bump up my makeup storage game with this bad boy.  My sweet hubby was even the one who insisted I get this. I had a much smaller one picked out, but nope, he thought this would fit my needs better.  I've got the best hubby!

Oh, and in case anyone wants to know what I look like, here it is.

I look a mess.  I worked a 12 hour night shift last night, only slept about 3 hours in a few 1 hour blocks, so I'm a little  "DERP!" but that's ok.

I think with my next blog, I'm gonna review something. Maybe eye shadow, or maybe a foundation. Any thoughts? 

God I hope that people enjoy reading this. I need to remember this.

This is not only good for my fitness, but also for all aspects of life.  Getting my blog up and going, doing makeup reviews, being a good nurse.  Everything.

Tired so very tired

So I worked last night, if you could call it that. We had low patient census and there just wasn't much to do in the 12 hours I was there.  I really wasn't complaining, but well, it does tend to make the night go slow. Add the fact that I didn't sleep well the day before, my pre-work nap wasn't all that great, and I don't sleep to much the day I get off work makes me pretty sleepy
 But I'm trying to stay up so I can sleep in cause I work again tomorrow night. Sigh.  And then again on Thus night.  These one night on one night off are harder on me than doing 2-3 nights in a row.

I'm going to Crossfit tomorrow.  Missed it.    Looks like a good wod to hit. I hope so anyway.

I sort of messed up my eating today.  Driving by the McDonalds and lack of sleep is not a good combo.   Oh well, shake it off and get back to eating really good tomorrow.

Got a couple things in the mail today.  A pair of scrub pants, and makeup!  This is what I got.

The colors are kind of light when I swatched them.  Not so sure about this purchase.  I might do a review here and on You Tube after I really try it out.

Yes, I started a You Tube channel.  Same name as this blog.  Not sure how much I'll use it, and right now I have yet to post anything.  I'm going to fix that later this week.

So keep on reading!  Hope you enjoy my ramblings. 

You make plans, God laughs

So I didn't get to go workout yesterday.  Our lawnmower of 11 years died. I mean died. Like it would cost more to fix it than its worth died.
So we went lawnmower shopping, and then to the bank to move money around to pay for the darn thing.  Sigh.  At least we have a nice newer mower that I hope lasts us 11 more years.

I didn't do much at work yesterday.  Studied some ICU books to get certified in ICU.  It was boring.  Today I'm on call. I'm so tired.  I didn't sleep well today, so I'm very happy to be on call.

I really should do some sort of workout tonight, but I've got the Nascar race on tonight and well I know I won't skip it so fuck it lol.

I keep finding new stuff to use as fitness goals.  Here's another one but man is it expensive!

Is this Marc Jacobs  pallet no so PRETTY!  Not sure its worth $99 but its so pretty!  
Sadly I probably won't be getting it.  I can buy 2 paletts somewhere else for one of this one.

I can't wait for Tue. Crossfit on Tue! 

I lost a pound doing this no sugar challenge. In less than a week too.  But man I'm having some big ass cravings today!  I want ice cream, and candy, and I don't want it all at the same time.   ACK!

Been toying with the idea of starting a You Tube channel and posting videos on my fitness journey, and maybe makeup reviews.  If anyone has a thought about it, post a comment,

No Crossfit tonight SIGH

I only signed up for 2 classes a week, but man, I'm feeling so good when I get done, well, after the feeling like I'm dying and I need the crash cart handy, I feel AMAZING! 

Next month, I'm gonna go for the unlimited!   YEP!  Gonna kick ass, or get mine kicked into shape.

I've lost a pound.  I know that doesn't sound like much, but I in perimenopause, and well that's a time in a woman's life where it can be so hard to lose weight.   So a pound for me is a great thing! 

I've almost decided what my reward will be for hitting my goals 

The Morphe 35U pallet, or maybe the

Morphe 35B  Both are so pretty!  I've got a few Morphe pallets already and really love them.

Today before work I'm going to hit the YMCA and do some walk/running.  I need to work on improving my cardio capacity. I know increasing that will help me with my WODs.  My biggest problem is gasping for air.  I'll get back there again, I know I will!

Everything hurts and I think I'm dying

Here is the torture, aka the WOD aka the workout we did today.  I did the green or blue sections.  Since I'm just starting out again, that's all I could manage.  But hey, I did better than people sitting on the couch which is what I would have been doing had I not showed up for CrossFit today.  So YEAH ME!

This is what I looked like when I was done. Sweat dripping, my shirt was soaking wet.  Man, I was tired but glad I did it.

I didn't do any makeup today.  I'm on call for the hospital tonight, so I'm really hoping I don't get called in. I do NOT want to work 4 nights in a row.  Maybe someday I can manage to cut back to part-time.  That would be nice.

My Brand New Blog

I have been thinking of getting back to blogging for a while now.  But I wasn't sure what I wanted to blog about. I like so many things.  Then it hit me.  Why not go for two things I  like.

Beauty, aka my slight makeup addiction, and health, something I'm trying to improve on. 

I've gotten slightly back into Crossfit.  I was into it a couple years ago, and was also 25lbs lighter than I am now.  Sigh.  A bad job, and to much stress and not going to Crossfit, thanks to my bad job and its hours, lead to my getting fatter again.  UGH!

I've sank myself into eating, and doing nothing for fitness. Bad move.  Really bad move.  Then I got into makeup bloggers and You Tubers.  Increased my makeup collection by two times, at least lol.  
Then it hit me.  WTF am I doing with all this make up when I do not look good in clothes, and even worse naked.  My sex life is suffering, cause I'm fat and out of shape.

So, I decided to get back into Crossfit.  This month, I'm only going to go 8 time. Break in slow.  I went last Fri and was sore for 3 days.  I'm going tomorrow.  I hope I'm not nearly as sore, but I probably will be.

This is what I need to remember:

While I feel like this:

Yep, that will be me tomorrow at about 4:45pm.

I've decided that when I hit my goal for the month of Sept, I'm going to reward myself with a little something.  Maybe

Yep.  Either a big makeup splurge or new Nanos, cause I do so much better with new shoes lol!
All I need to do is remember this: