Friday, July 12, 2019

I just don't want to "people" today.

Ever have a time,where thinking about being around people just makes you go
I'm having that day today.  I just don't want to people today.

I was a very long night of work last night.  Very long. Very busy.  Just, not good.   And today, I just refuse to people today.

So I'm sitting in my house, with my pets watching lame tv. Cause I can.  Hubby is at the local county fair watching the Demolition Derby, and I'm alone with the  pets watching lame tv.  And its amazing.

Tomorrow hubby and I are going to Des Moines to pick a few things up we can't get in our home town.   And go out to eat.  I'm trying to decide if I want to pick something up for myself, like new workout shoes.  I need more workout shoes like I need more cats, but I want new workout shoes, lol.  Or something.  Maybe I'll look at some. 

Maybe new workout shoes or something fitness related will help get my butt more on track.  I'm just flailing around.  I've been kind of lazy, just not doing what I need to do.  I don't know why!  I need to get into better shape, and better health.  I just can't seem to get it together more than a couple days in a row.   I really need to work on this.  Work on not only my motivation, but my dedication to getting myself in better health.    Maybe when I go part-time at the hospital it will be easier for me.  I won't be as stressed out and won't feel the need to just sleep to catch up on sleep.

I'm so thankful that I have a hubby who understands my need to be alone sometimes.  People don't tend to believe me when I say I'm more of an introvert, but I have times I need to just be alone with no one around.  Even if its just in my room. I just need to have alone time.

I think I just need to pick a workout plan and just stick with it for 4 weeks. How hard can it be to just pick one workout?  I guess its pretty hard cause I can't seem to do it. Its like my brain goes  "Ok, I'm going to do program x"  then 2 hours later "no I want to do program A"  then "no program 5 looks great"   When they all are wonderful, and would give me results but I bounce around and don't start any of them, or I start one, for a week, then get all like  "I wonder if this other program would be better"

Ugh, my brain wears me out sometimes.