Back to reality

SOOOOOO, for the last week or so, I've eaten what I want, regardless of calorie count, macro count,  and regardless of how it made me feel that bloated, I think I may look 8 mo pregnant after I'm done eating.

I've also sat on my now growing, but not in the "she squats" way, ass and not done one workout in the last week or so.

So now, its time to get back to the reality, that I'm overfat, can't eat whatever I want, whenever I want, and sit around and be a fit woman.

Nope, I need to count calories, count macros, workout, move around more often, and hope that I'm doing enough of all of those things to try and drop about 20lbs of fat, while putting on a few pounds of muscle.

We went up to visit our middle daughter in  Ankeny IA today.  It was so great to see her.  Went out to eat at Outback Steakhouse, which was yummie!!!  We had a nice visit.  I miss getting to visit with her whenever I want, but that's what happens when your kids grow up and move out.

And while driving around, looking for where our youngest daughter's apartment will be, she's going to Ankeny as well to collage,   I was yearning a little bit for the opportunities of a bigger town/small city.   The gyms, the restaurants, the places to shop, the job opportunities, etc.   Small town living is nice and all, but man it would be nice to have more places to eat out, a couple real gyms to workout in, and more than 2 small grocery stores to buy food in.  And a bigger hospital to work in where maybe I could be a full time ICU nurse.

We went to one of the big Hy-Vee stores to pick out a few things, and man, the food choices!  Got some good fruits and veggies. LOVED IT!   Saw at least 3 gyms, plus an Orange Theory which is a specialized gym,  and I know there is at least one Crossfit gym there.   Plus nice places to walk/run outside. 

Just wish I had more things like that around.  Nearest gym is over 35 min away.  One way.   Yes I have my own home gym, but it would be nice to have a leg press machine to use and a couple other machines to use, which I don't have, can't afford, and don't have room for anyway. 

Oh well.  Guess I'll just have to make due with what's not here, and just yearn for more from time to time.  All I can do, but it does suck sometimes.

I have the best idea for eye shadows palettes!

To bad I'm a really tiny YouTuber cause if I had 50,000+ subs, I could probably get a colab with a makeup brand and get it made.  A smaller brand I'm sure, but I'd be thrilled to colab with BH Cosmetics or something like that. BH Cosmetics makes some of my favorite eye shadows period.

I have an idea for a Goddess line, first using Greek goddesses.  Athena, Artemis, Hera, Hestia and maybe Aphrodite, but everyone uses her name.

Then maybe a Norse goddess line.  Sif, Frigg, Freya, Idun.

Then we switch and have a Fae line using the Celtic goddesses, who some call the Fae.   Like Flidais Morrigan, Brigid, Cerridwen.

I have colors to use for all of them.

Sigh.  But no, we are stuck with unicorns, My Little Pony, and mermaids.  I'm over them.  But we are surrounded with those lines, and what I think would be so pretty will never see the light of day.

Maybe I need to learn how to make eye shadows and start my own Etsy line of makeup.  Maybe I could make it big, or bigger, like Bitter Lace Beauty who makes my favorite highlighters.

So my readers, go watch all my YouTube videos, subscribe to my channel and help me grow so I can make my own colab with a makeup company!!  I'm sure you'd love my eye shadow palettes lol.

I am so sore lol

So I started a new workout program  The Year One Challenge

I've done two days, and now everything hurts lol.    I don't think I can move my arms.  I might be able to in about 3 days, but well, tonight, and tomorrow, I'm sure I won't be able to move my arms lol.  Great workouts. I'm gonna soak in a nice hot tub of Epsom salts.

I've managed to lose another 2lbs, so that's a good thing.  I won't take measurements for another few weeks cause well it takes a while for that to catch up


I picked myself up something today.  Something I've been wanting for quite some time.  The Queen of Hearts palette by Coloured Raine. Its been on my want to buy list for months now, and I just decided to get it. 

Isn't it pretty!   I can't wait to use it.

Been going through my collection and trying to declutter things I don't want/need.  Its super hard cause I want to keep it all, but really, I don't need 8 palettes with bright colors when I don't use bright colors very often.  But I want to keep them all lol.  But they need to go to homes where they will get used more often,  so I need to let them go.  I'll make a decluttering video soon. 

That's about all I have to say today.

So I might be getting something like this... need to keep my butt high and tight.

Time to get a couple more things for my home gym.  Now these may not be the exact things I buy, but they represent what I'm planning on buying.

First, a hyperextention bench.  Hyperextenstions work your glutes and lower back.  I want my ass to NOT fall down around my knees, and well, you know what they call a nurse without back pain?  A liar.  I don't usually have back pain, so lets work those muscles to prevent any back pain.
Here's what I'm looking at,

Then second, a pull up tower.  I want to do pull ups if it kills me.  Period.  Even if I only manage to eeek out one, I want to say I did a pull up.  And trying to use my barbell up high is not a good sub.  It wiggles, which sort of freaks me out.  So I need a pull up tower.
This probably won't be what I buy, but its one I'm looking at. 

So I'm going to be getting back to heavy weight lifting next week.  And I'll be working towards obtaining my goal  of doing ONE PULL UP.  And the everlasting goal of building a butt, and keeping up where butts belong. 

So there it is.  Things for my gym I want to buy.  I can get these while still saving up for that new fridge that I want. 

And I'll hopefully look better and feel better  and be healthier with these. Makeup, I'll just look better lol