Back to reality

SOOOOOO, for the last week or so, I've eaten what I want, regardless of calorie count, macro count,  and regardless of how it made me feel that bloated, I think I may look 8 mo pregnant after I'm done eating.

I've also sat on my now growing, but not in the "she squats" way, ass and not done one workout in the last week or so.

So now, its time to get back to the reality, that I'm overfat, can't eat whatever I want, whenever I want, and sit around and be a fit woman.

Nope, I need to count calories, count macros, workout, move around more often, and hope that I'm doing enough of all of those things to try and drop about 20lbs of fat, while putting on a few pounds of muscle.

We went up to visit our middle daughter in  Ankeny IA today.  It was so great to see her.  Went out to eat at Outback Steakhouse, which was yummie!!!  We had a nice visit.  I miss getting to visit with her whenever I want, but that's what happens when your kids grow up and move out.

And while driving around, looking for where our youngest daughter's apartment will be, she's going to Ankeny as well to collage,   I was yearning a little bit for the opportunities of a bigger town/small city.   The gyms, the restaurants, the places to shop, the job opportunities, etc.   Small town living is nice and all, but man it would be nice to have more places to eat out, a couple real gyms to workout in, and more than 2 small grocery stores to buy food in.  And a bigger hospital to work in where maybe I could be a full time ICU nurse.

We went to one of the big Hy-Vee stores to pick out a few things, and man, the food choices!  Got some good fruits and veggies. LOVED IT!   Saw at least 3 gyms, plus an Orange Theory which is a specialized gym,  and I know there is at least one Crossfit gym there.   Plus nice places to walk/run outside. 

Just wish I had more things like that around.  Nearest gym is over 35 min away.  One way.   Yes I have my own home gym, but it would be nice to have a leg press machine to use and a couple other machines to use, which I don't have, can't afford, and don't have room for anyway. 

Oh well.  Guess I'll just have to make due with what's not here, and just yearn for more from time to time.  All I can do, but it does suck sometimes.