I just have been feeling like kind of a bad nurse. I just don't have a lot of empathy for a few of the patients we have had lately. When you have drank yourself into severe health problems, and keep drinking after some major health problems, like strokes and heart attacks, or you are a meth head and keep using, even after multiple ER visits, and hospital stays, I just get tired of seeing it. We've had a string of this here in the last month or so. Oh, I still take care of them to the best of my ability, but I will admit, I think and even mutter to myself as I walk back to the nurses station that dude, you did this to yourself so don't bitch to me cause I can't do what you want cause I have 4 other patients who need me too, and didn't fuck themselves up. Doesn't make me feel like I'm a good nurse. I know every nurse who has to deal with this sort of thing probably feels this way from time to time, but still. As a Christian, and a nurse, I should try to be less judgmental. Probably need to pray on that. At least so far, I still go in with a smile, do my best to care for them, and keep the muttering to myself.
As for the rest of my life, I'm gonna go to Crossfit tonight. Need it to work off my stress of the last couple nights. Nothing like lifting some heavy weights over my head, and throwing a heavy ball up against the wall to make me feel better. And maybe get the scale to moving again. Had a bit of a diet fall out over the weekend, but the scale thankfully didn't really change.
I'm gonna be doing a video tonight of the new stuff I got recently. Gonna use my new video camera! Can't wait to really get into using it. It came yesterday and I really have not gotten to use it. Just a quick turn on and look at the picture on the screen. So today is gonna be the real test. Look for a new video either later tonight or early tomorrow. Probably later tonight.
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