Tuesday, December 13, 2016

Where did my motivation go?

I had a cold last week, one of those that you need to blow your nose when you move.  So anyway, I didn't get much in the way of workouts in.  Kind of hard to workout when you do a move, blow your nose. Do a move, blow your nose.   I'm finally about over it, still need to blow my nose a couple times,but it doesn't run better than I do lol.

But my motivation has totally taken a dive. I think it packed up and went to warmer weather.   I know some is this time of the year.  The lack of sunshine always takes a toll on my mood, my energy, my motivations.  And I know working out and eating healthy would actually make me feel better, but, well, in the middle of it all, I just can't make myself.  I do take St Johns Wort which helps my mood. I usually start taking it late Oct, early Nov.  I was a little slow this year, not starting til mid Nov.  It does seems to help even things out.  And I do try to get as much sunshine in as I can, but working nights, that makes it hard.  

I just need to force myself to do something. Ok, I've been doing some stretching and stuff, but that doesn't really burn many calories or build muscle now does it.  I'm on call tonight, sigh, and while I should do something I hate just starting some workout, then getting the call. Or just starting to break a sweat, then getting the call, and having to try to clean up really fast then going to work.  Being on call sometimes sucks.

Work was really long last night. My 2 ICU patients were not needing much from me, so it was a long night.  That makes for a very long night.  I think that 12 hours lasted more like 36 lol.    I long for the day I can work part-time.  I love being a nurse, but I love being with my hubby whom I have not gotten to see for months at a time when he was deployed.  Part-time would give me the best of both worlds.  Being a nurse, and getting to spend a lot of time with my hubby.

Maybe someday.

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