Friday, November 4, 2016

Someday things will be normal

Just no anytime in the next week or two.   Today, after 3 of the longest 12 hour shifts I've worked in a while, I have to go up to Des Moines to job shadow in the ICU at Methodist.  Its for my training but man, I don't want to go.  I'm tired, I'm grumpy, and I'm just tired.  Sometimes I'm not sure management is really looking out for the nursing staff.  We just kind of get told "we'll be fine" when we're understaffed which makes me feel like a shit nurse, cause I can't do the things I want to do.  I want to do more than the basics.  The meds and assessment. I want to do stuff like back rubs, helping brush teeth, or even the  simple next step, like taking them out for walks in hallways.    But when we're understaffed, we can't do that.  But "we'll be fine"  Um, ok, but how about the patients?  Will they when the nursing staff is stressed?

I just want it to be 7am tomorrow morning, so maybe I'll get a couple days off.  Except that Sat will be me sleeping for a few hours so Sat will be a waste.  And Sun, I've got other responsibilities,  before I finally get to do something I want to do.  Go see Doctor Strange.   That's the only thing I'm really looking forward to in the next couple days.  Nothing else really.  I'm just tired.  Tired of the extra training that always takes away my time off.  God love the government and its mandates to force people to do extra training.

I'm feeling kind of whiny today.  I've got about 10 mins before I have to get ready to leave, again.  UGH!  Not a way to start a job shadow, feeling grumpy and whiny and feeling so tired.  I just want to get through this, and next week and maybe I can get back to regular days.

Should have played a video game. Maybe killing stuff would make me feel better.  I hope I can get to that tomorrow.

See you all later, and I hope that you have a better day than I seem to be having.

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