So I stimulated the local economy today with my sister lol

Ok, so we went to our local Agnes and Dora rep's house and bought clothes we probably didn't need but bought them anyway lol.
Ok, I REALLY didn't need them.  At least my sister is a teacher and dresses nice to go to work.  I'm a nurse and wear scrubs everyday I go to work.  I do enjoy dressing nice when hubby and I go on our little trips to Des Moines.  And I'd like to start going to other places like hitting Kansas City up once in a while for a change of pace.

I started ordering these pants. No these are not my legs:

 Then when we got these, I picked up this dress:

 And this shirt.

And another one, but if you want to see it you can check out my Instagram page.
Barbells.and.Beauty

Still trying to lose weight only it doesn't want to be lost.  All I want to eat is ice cream cause its FREAKING HOT AS SHIT here.  OMG,  I'm over this heat.  I get puffy when it gets hot outside.  My rings don't fit right. My ankles are a little more swollen.  And I drink plenty of water.  Like a gallon a day.  Still puffy. UGH.

They are saying we'll get a mini break from the heat over the weekend and for a few days after.  Highs in the 80s, which I can handle.  96 degrees with heat indexes over 108 is just to hot.  And that's where we were today.

Is it early fall yet?

Tired of summer

Never thought I'd say that.   But I am.  I'm tired of summer.

This summer has been hot, for a much longer period of time that usual.  We had 90s in May.  In MAY.  Ok, once in a while we'll have a day maybe two, where it will hit 90, but that's all.  This year, it was a whole bunch of days.  Then more in June, then more so far in July.   I'm over it.  I like 80s.  Warm enough to wear shorts, but not so hot you think you're gonna melt.  Cause here in Iowa we often have high humidity.  All the corn we grow pumps out humidity like crazy.  So it will be 95 with a heat index over 105.  UGH.  So you just walk around outside damp cause the sweat doesn't evaporate.  It just stays on there.  UGH!

I'm ready for leggings, boots, etc.  I'm just tired of being hot, and tired of walking around half wet outside. 

I'm also tired of being fat.  I just can't seem to get it together enough to get this weight off.  I've lost 20lbs but sadly its been the same 5lbs over and over again.   This is so depressing.  I mean, I just can't seem to get my shit together, and get this weight off.   I'll do great for a couple days, then fair for another day or two, then it all falls apart.  I'll skip a couple workouts, I'll eat a bunch of crap.  And the weight stays the same. 

I don't know what it is about my level of dedication, but it is kind of sucky right now.  I mean I want to get into better shape, I want to get this belly fat off. But apparently I don't based on my actions.  There is something stopping me from obtaining my goals. 

So I did something.  I ordered this book:

I hope I get some tips out of this that will help me out cause I sure need it. 

Down almost 3lbs!

I know how awesome!  A few friends at work, and a few of their family members, have joined me in a summer challenge.  We're gonna see who can lose the biggest percentage of our body weight.  And I'm down almost 3lbs.  Ok, so that's a very small number, but I've been sloooowly gaining here so to have any weight loss at all, is HUGE for me!  So don't go harshing my joy!

I've gotten some new makeup (big shock right) here lately.  I think after this I'm going to slow up again.  I've managed to hit pan on a couple things and I got so excited that I managed to hit pan!  I'd like to do that on a couple other things before the year is over.  I can do it, I know I can.

Here is one thing I've gotten already: 

The BH Cosmetics Aurora Lights palette.  I can't wait to dig into this.  This time of year I'm either "I WANT COLOR" or I want very light taupe/brown you can barely see.  This will obviously be for the I want color days lol.

I ordered this one too:

Urban Decay's Born to Run.  It won't get here until Tue or Wed. and the wait is killing me lol.

I'm starting to schedule my workouts in my day planner.  I need to be dedicated to my workouts. Period.  I've been skipping workouts and its not a good thing.  I won't get fit skipping workouts.  And I want to get fit.

So I hope to be blogging in another couple weeks and being able to say I'm down 5lbs!  That's my goal.   So I need to set steps to use to reach that goal! 

Has it really been 2 months?

WOW!  I could have sworn it was less than that since I last blogged.

Oh well.  Guess I've not had much to say.  Oh I know I had one time I typed out a partial blog and then deleted it cause it was just a bunch of whining when I'd had a bad day.   

Things are weird here in southwest Iowa.  We are under a boil order for water.  Guess some filter broke at the main water processing plant and God knows when they will get it replaced.  So now we are to boil the water or drink bottled.  What an ass pain.  And even are suppose to even wash the dishes in boiled water cause dishwashers don't get hot enough for long enough.  Screw that.  I'l take my chances.  I'll drink bottled and boiled water, but I'm not boiling water, waiting for it to cool, then washing dishes by hand in it.   Nope.

So I got this the other day.

                                                                                                                                               

Its a day planner.  Wonder Woman lol.  I've loved Wonder Woman since I was a girl watching the tv show.  I'm turning it into a fitness planner.  Gonna plan out workouts, track my daily totals for macros/calories, weight, steps,  and maybe even do some meal planning.   

I've also joined 2 challenges. One is a month long challenge with ladies from work.  Just a "lets get fit" thing.  We each paid $5 and we'll see how much percentage of weight we can lose, winner gets the pot.  I'm not really expecting to win but its great to have the ladies with me

The other is a 60 day accountability group where you check in daily.  Again, just something to help me keep at it if I have to check in.  2 days done, 58 left to go lol.

Off to read up the Sunday School lesson I'm doing at the nursing home tomorrow.  Should at least be able to say all the names right.  Why can't people in the Bible have names like "Bob" or "Billy"  No its like Zephaniah lol  Should get to reading.

Until next time

Back to heavy weights in April!

So, I took a couple weeks off of heavy weights to do some of my video workouts which was a nice change.  But well, now I'm getting the very big itch to lift heavy again.   So next month, after I pig out on Easter Sunday, I'm gonna start this program:

I like this cause well, its got 5 day a week, 4 day a week and 3 day a week options for workouts. No matter what I can find an option for me to do.

I'm getting ready for my clean eating challenge.  Tomorrow I'm going to take measurements.  UGH!  I'd rather not, but I need to know where I'm starting from so I know how far I've gone.

I'm trying to really find a good journal to use to track my fitness.  I've got a bullet journal and its good, but well, sometimes its hard to keep up on a daily basis.  How do people keep bullet journals up everyday??? LOL

I've gotten quite a bit of new makeup in the last 6 weeks and now I think its time to cut back a little and use it, and review it on my beauty channel.   I'll post some links to a few new videos I've done in the last couple weeks off to the right.

Hope things are going well for everyone who is reading this!

Did something different

So, for a while now, I've been feeling a little UGH about my fitness routine. I was lifting heavy and I wasn't feeling very inspired or motivated.
So for the last couple weeks, I've been doing my fitness videos and streaming workouts.   I was really fun.  I reconnected with some of my old Firm workouts, and some of the very old workouts I really use to love to do.

But the itch to lift heavy is starting to get to me.  I was watching a friend's Instagram workout the other day and I almost tried the workout she had on there.

So here I've been sitting, looking at all the lifting programs I've got here at a home, looking at lifting programs on the internet looking at all my lifting books.  I will pick out a program to do.  And here's what I'm planning to do.  Every 6-8 weeks I'll take 2 weeks off to do my videos, streaming etc workouts to keep myself from getting burnt out on lifting heavy.   And to keep myself interested in my fitness journey.

A friend and I are starting a new challenge in April, after Easter of course lol.  For her, she wants to do a Whole 30 program. For me, I want to do a clean eating challenge.   I think having a friend to talk to when things get tough, and I'm feeling like sluffing off will help me.  I did a similar challenge when I was Crossfitting a couple years ago, and having the group helped a lot.  And I managed to drop a little fat too.

My low sugar challenge isn't going quite as well as I was hoping, but I have managed to cut back on sugar some, so all in all its ok.  I've got just under 2 weeks to go so I can manage.

Not much else going on. Or rather, not much going on that I can talk about.  There are things going on but I can't talk about it.  Oh, there is no gag order, but I'd rather not get fired.  Lets just leave it at that. 

My low sugar challenge for March

Just a warning for those I might be around for the next couple days, I'm cutting WAY back on sugar for the month of March.  I know from last year when I did something very similar, I had a couple days where I was a little bitchy. 
Now, I will allow my creamer in my coffee.  Some is sugar free,  but the others, have some, but I'm not going to give that up.  Maybe getting a little sugar in my creamer will help keep me from having the bad withdrawal. I hope so
I also will allow treats, like when we go see Death Wish next week.  I will be having Reese's Pieces in the theater.  Bite me lol.  You will pry movie theater popcorn and candy out of my hands at a theater when I'm dead.

I've made myself a fitness journal. I'm going to keep track of some crap.  I hope that maybe keeping track of steps, eating, etc it will help keep me on the fitness path.  Been kind of meandering in my fitness journey here and I'm not sure what to do to really feel it again.   I use to really enjoy getting up and working out, but now it almost feel like a chore.  All of it.    I'm not sure what happened.  I mean I do enjoy the feeling when I'm done, but it just seems like getting up, getting ready, going to do the actual workout, just ugh.  I'm to lazy now to want to do it.

Maybe its the workout program I'm trying to do.  Maybe I need to find something that really trips my trigger.   The one place I use to go to find a new program is Bodybuilding.com but no more.  Now they want people to PAY for the programs that use to be free. If they think I'm going to PAY for that they are just fucking STUPID!  My word. I'll just google workouts and find some for free thank you very much. Hell, I can find a bunch for free on YouTube, Pinterest, Google, I don't need you Bodybuilding.com and you All Access pay for programs.  What's really shitty, they are having people pay for these programs that the instructors have probably provided for free.

Work has been ok.  Same shit different day I guess.  Same crap the administration is doing, but at least the flu season seems , SEEMS, to be slowing down some.  Seems to.  I don't want to jinx myself cause I work this weekend.

I should get up and walk a little bit. I sat quite a bit doing my fitness bullet journal today so I don't have many steps in.  I should but its not looking good lol.