When will I ever get more viewers??

I know its silly, but I want more viewers on my You Tube channel.  I know its only been 2 weeks, and my videos are pretty low quality, and probably not that good, but I would have thought I'd have double digit subscribers by now. Like 10-12 subscribers.  Was stuck at 6 for a long time, now I have 8.   My average view is only about 10 views per video.    Been trying to improve my quality of my videos, editing more.   Trying to post a few videos each week. But still.  Just 8 subscribers.

I am not comparing myself to the big dogs in the beauty world on You Tube, the Jeffree Stars the Manny Muas, the Jaclyn Hills, with their million subscribers and hundreds of thousands of views, but is it to much to ask to get 30-50 subscribers and 25 average views?   I hope to get there in time.  I'd really like to get better equipment, maybe a better camcorder, some lighting, etc, but I can't even think about all that until I have some real viewers.  It would be silly to spend that much money for 8 people lol.

I have to go back to work tomorrow.  I enjoy my work, I really do, but man sometimes it would be nice to just sit back and not have to go to work ever again.  Just go to Crossfit, make my little videos, blog, read, spend time with my hubby. It would really be nice.  Oh, I'd probably work a few days a month, just to keep myself busy, but not this 3 day a week.   Maybe tomorrow night won't be bad.  Maybe the patient census will be down a little, or maybe they won't be all such heavy care and it won't be to bad.  I hope so. 

I'm so sore from Crossfit this week.  I hit it 3 times this week, and WOW!  My shoulders and abs are so sore.  I can't laugh without it hurting.  Oh its not that bad, but I did forget how sore one can get from working out hard and heavy, and it really is a good feeling!  I can't wait to go back on Mon.

Not much going on right now with me.  Picked up a couple things while shopping today.  Not much, some brow stuff and a highlighter.  Also been using my new juicer some.  Try to make juice everyday. Try to make it with something new everyday.  Today was 2 carrots, those big jumbo ones, an apple and half a cucumber.  Had a half leftover. Wish it had been a whole one.  But overall it was pretty good.

Guess that's all for tonight. Hope to post more tomorrow before I go to work.

Lipsence Review

Thought I'd post this here just in case

I feel like a bad nurse sometimes

I just have been feeling  like kind of a bad nurse.  I just don't have a lot of empathy for a few of the patients we have had lately.  When you have drank yourself into severe health problems, and keep drinking after some major health problems, like strokes and heart attacks, or you are a meth head and keep using, even after multiple ER visits, and hospital stays, I just get tired of seeing it.  We've had a string of this here in the last month or so.  Oh, I still take care of them to the best of my ability, but I will admit, I think and even mutter to myself as I walk back to the nurses station that dude, you did this to yourself so don't bitch to me cause I can't do what you want cause I have 4 other patients who need me too, and didn't fuck themselves up.   Doesn't make me feel like I'm a good nurse.  I know every nurse who has to deal with this sort of thing probably feels this way from time to time, but still.  As a Christian, and a nurse, I should try to be less judgmental.  Probably need to pray on that.  At least so far, I still go in with a smile, do my best to care for them, and keep the muttering to myself.

As for the rest of my life, I'm gonna go to Crossfit tonight. Need it to work off my stress of the last couple nights.  Nothing like lifting some heavy weights over my head, and throwing a heavy ball up against the wall to make me feel better.  And maybe get the scale to moving again. Had a bit of a diet fall out over the weekend, but the scale thankfully didn't really change.

I'm gonna be doing a video tonight of the new stuff I got recently.  Gonna use my new video camera!  Can't wait to really get into using it. It came yesterday and I really have not gotten to use it.  Just a quick turn on and look at the picture on the screen. So today is gonna be the real test.  Look for a new video either later tonight or early tomorrow.  Probably later tonight.

Got new stuff today, but WAAAA, I have to work

Worked last night, it was another rougher night, and then today, while I slept, I got stuff. I got my new juicer, and my new video camera.  Man, I want to play with them both, but dang it, in a little while, I'll be getting ready to go to work again. 

So tomorrow, I'll be filming again, but this time, using my new camcorder. I can't wait!  I hope it improves the quality of my videos.   I would love to actually get more viewers.  Guess it will happen if and when it happens.   I'm enjoying the filming and editing.  So that's the main thing.

Gonna be a short blog today. Like I said, I will be getting ready for work in less than an hour, and well I want to scroll through Instagram before I go to work.  And maybe look through my book collection and take one in case I get a few mins to sit and read. 

I've got to decide what to film tomorrow. I'm thinking of doing a review on Lipscense lipsticks.   But maybe I'll get my Colourpop order and can show them all off.  Decisions, decisions.

I ordered a new camera, and more makeup lol

I decided that cause I'm really enjoying my filming You Tube videos, I just ordered a cheaper camcorder.  My hubby dug out our really REALLY old one, I'm talking it still used tapes, the small ones, but still tapes for crying out loud lol.   Works great still, but I have no way of hooking up the camera to my laptop for editing and posting.  Oh, I could hook it up to out dvd recorder, make a dvd, then burn it onto my laptop, then edit and post, but wow.  I'm not getting any money to post stuff on You Tube, so that's way to much work.  I'll just use my webcam, which isn't the best quality, but hey, its better than nothing.

While I was at it, I ordered a BH cosmetics palette that has eye shadow and blushes. Along with more brushes.  I really should just do a big splurge on myself and get some Sigma or Morphe or MAC brushes.  Maybe I'll do that when I hit the 10lb weight loss mark.  So I've got a while.  These are ok brushes. I just want more when I'm waiting for brushes to dry when I wash them, which I should do more often.   Here's the palette I ordered.

I hope it is as good as it looks.  BH Cosmetics has a pretty good reputation, and I've gotten a palette from them before, so I think I'll be pleased.

I was a lazy bum today.  Woke up way to early thanks to a phone call from the nursing home I still pick up a shift or two once in a while for.  Some computer issue, I use to do 99% of the tech problems there.  I was bad, and I didn't call back.  For all they know, I was sleeping due to a night shift I worked.  Got up for a few mins, then went back to sleep for a couple more hours.  Then of course the Nascar race was on, so I watched that.  Didn't like the outcome, or the winner. Oh well, at least the racers I really don't like didn't win, so I guess its ok.

 I'm filming a new video tonight, a review of Loreal Infallible  foundation.  I'll preview it right now, I'm not a big fan of it.  Settled into lines after a few hours, and wore off my nose pretty bad.  Go to my You Tube channel later tonight, or heck anytime and watch my videos.  Just remember, the quality of them will be going up really soon, so that's a very good thing. 

Hubby is sitting here watching a wrestling pay per view.  We have the WWE network, don't ask, and he watched ALL the PPV wresting stuff. Use to be a few times a year then once a month, now ever freaking 2 weeks this crap is on.  He knows its all preplanned, but it is impressive to see the people do the moves. They are athletic moves if nothing else.

My juicer will be coming on Tue. To bad I'm working Tue night, so I won't get much chance to mess with it. Oh well, I'll have a few days off after Tue to play with it and get it going and hope make some juices that taste good.

Tomorrow is Crossfit then work.  I hope its ok.  Work I mean, not Crossfit.  Work has been pretty hectic lately and I want it to be smooth.  Is it wrong to ask for a nice smooth shift without a bunch of crap? And as a nurse, I mean both literal and figurative crap.  I don't think so.

So tonight, I'll stay up late, then sleep way in tomorrow, to get ready to stay up all night tomorrow.   Maybe there will be a good movie on Netflix I can watch.

Some ramblings on fitness and beauty

I posted this last night, but didn't get around to posting it on my blog until now.  What can I say, I was tired.  Hope you enjoy my ramblings, and if you are so inclined please subscribe.

Cheat day, how yummie

My hubby and I decided to have a cheat day.  I've been doing a No Sugar challenge for most of the month.  Some members of my Crossfit box joined this challenge, and I was one of them.  But today, my daughter is home from collage, and I went up with her to get my hair done, and we all went out to eat.   Then today, we just are having a "screw it' kind of day and we both want a little candy.  so that's what we're going to do.  One day won't kill me, won't kill my healthy eating, and well, I just want some.

I also picked up a couple new things at Wal Mart.  A couple baskets to arrange my makeup in.  My collection is growing everyday it seems.   Which is more than ok in my mind lol.  And I also got two things from Physician's Formula.  Its been a decade or more since I got something from this brand.  Way back when, I tried something from them, I wasn't as impressed.  But in recent years the "drugstore" brands have really been stepping up their games and making big improvements on  most of the products they put out.  I've read and seen good things from them, so I put a little money out to try them out.  I got these two things.

I tried them out when I got home.  The bronzer is nice, but I really need to give it a go before I already have a bronzer on.  But I think its going to be a nice dose of color without being to dark.
But this highlighter. WOW!  I can't wait to wear it by itself.  The highlighter I had on was a very light one, one that was very subtle. but this gave me a great pop of light.   So I do think I'll wear it all day tomorrow and do a review of it.

I tried a new foundation today.  I was going to film a full review, but decided not to cause when I get my hair done,  I always seem like I get some foundation wiped off my forehead, and a little wiped off when I brush the little small hairs off my face.  So reviewing this foundation when I know I've wiped some off, some got damp from the washing of my hair, wouldn't be fair.  And I do want to be fair.  And that's a good thing cause if I reviewed this right now, it wouldn't be a good review lol.   Maybe tomorrow I'll put it on for church and leave it on all day and see how it does.

And tomorrow, it will be back on the healthy eating lifestyle.  I can tell I feel so much better when I eat healthy.  I have more energy, I feel better, my skin looks better.  And I've lost nearly 3lbs in the not quite 3 weeks.  Which is amazing for me as I usually struggle to lose a pound a month. 

Monday will be Crossfit day for me, and I can't wait.  Only getting to go one time last week was kind of a bummer.  I think this week I can go Mon, Wed and Fri, and that will be great!