I need this like I need a hole in my head

But I want this so bad.  But its so freaking expensive.  But I want it so bad. UGH!  Why have I not won the lottery?

If I did get this, it would be the only thing I could get for a couple week. Cause this palette is $125.  Yes, $125.  I need to either become a big blogger and YouTuber making a nice chunk of change from my blogs and videos, or win the lottery lol.  Just keep going and maybe someday I will get a check from YouTube or my blog.  Like in 3 years lol.  Oh, maybe 2 and a half lol.

My low sugar challenge is not going well.  I need to crack down on myself and just say NO.  I'll do better tomorrow.  I need to. My waist line says I need to.

Next week, I'm going to go back to heavy weight lifting.  I'm missing it way so much, and well, I'm a firm believer in doing the physical activity you enjoy, and lifting heavy things up and down makes me happy.  And it can boost my metabolism and help me burn off some body fat, so its all good, right?

I have only one more day off before I work the weekend. UGH!  I'm already dreading it.  That's kind of say.  Dreading work when its still like 2 nights away.   Oh well, this to shall pass. I'm sure it will be good after I get there.  Just the thought of what it could be. Which could be crap.

I guess that's all for today.  Not to much else to say, other than enjoy your days off when you get them people!

Decluttering is good for the soul.

Yep, I've started to declutter. Makeup for now, but I did take a bag full of older clothes I don't want, won't wear, or can't fit into anymore, to the local donation place. And some used makeup.  Felt good.

Pretty soon, I'll go through shoes, and maybe more clothes and get rid of more.  I need to thin out my nail polish collection.  Its HUGE and a few have gone bad.  I did the thinning down thing once but I think one time is enough.  More than that, and it doesn't seem like they do nearly as well.

If you are interested here's a play list of my declutters I've filmed for YouTube.
Decluttering

Doing a low sugar challenge in Sept.  Did great the first day.  Today, hubby "treated" me to Reece's Pieces and UGH I didn't really want them, but ate them anyway.  Tomorrow I'll do better. I need to.  I feel better when I'm not eating as much sugar. I can lose weight easier, my skin looks better.  So, well,  I need to ensure hubby knows I'm really wanting to do this.  In times past, he almost gets a little irritable when I try to eat healthy, or do low sugar, etc.   Like me trying to get healthier is doing something to him???  Whatever.

Gotta get back into lifting tomorrow as well.  I think for this month, I'm going to loosely follow a  program.  Kind of an upper body/lower body split. Ease myself into it a little bit.   Then in Oct, start hitting it harder again.

I've managed to gain a few subs on my YouTube channel. Good!  I hope my channel keeps growing and getting better.  I like making my videos, and I just want to keep making content I enjoy, and people enjoy watching.

I think this week I'll do more decluttering.  Maybe a few books and such.  I've got a few I know I won't reread, so maybe I can donate them to our local library.

So, I'm starting to do giveaways on my YouTube channel

Giveaway at the end

All you have to do is leave a comment  stating if you would, or wouldn't be willing to accept gently used makeup, like eye shadow palettes, or blushes,  that I would disinfect with alcohol, before shipping them.  That's it.  You will be entered.   Odds are good right now, cause I only have 4 entries so far.  Several days left to go. Won't draw the winner until probably next Thur or so and post the winner next Fri. 

And I'll be doing a giveaway at least monthly, so you might think about subscribing to my channel and checking out my videos.  I'll do a bigger giveaway when I hit 300 subs, and I only have 20 subs left to go to get there.

Anyway, things are going ok I guess.  Been on vacation for the last week.  I don't want to go back on Monday.  I really don't.  I need to win the lottery, or get so many subs and view on my YouTube channel that I start making money lol.   Then I could just stay at home and play with my makeup and make videos several times a week. That would be so great!  I've had fun filming extra this week.  I've still got one or two more I want to film and have one waiting to be put on YouTube on Sunday.  I do enjoy making my videos.  Wish I was better at putting on makeup and could do more tutorials.  My tutorials or get ready with me just don't get many views.

The beauty world on YouTube is sure going through some shit right now.  Things coming out I'm betting the big gurus wish stayed hidden. Channels losing 10s of thousands of subs.  Its crazy!  Things are weird out there in the beauty world. 

For the month of Sept I've got 2 main challenges going on.  A Low Sugar challenge where I'm going to wean myself down from the added sugars in stuff, and a Low Buy for makeup.  I need to try and use some of what I've got and lower my buying.  So of COURSE things go on sale this weekend.  I will let myself get a couple things.  Bitter Lace Beauty has a sale, and I ADORE their highlighters.  So I "NEED" a new one, right?    And the SECOND Makeup Geek puts out their fall palette, I'll be all over it like Yogi Bear on a picnic basket.

So I managed to lose 4lbs this summer.  And that's with eating a LOT of crap all summer long.  Hoping with my low sugar challenge, I can drop a few more pounds.  Last time I did one, I lost 4lbs in a month just from avoiding the obvious sugar in things.   Put that together with a good workout routine, I might see an inch or so come off my body.  I'd be down with that. 

Not much else.  Now that summer is "over" I hope to get back to blogging more often.  I need to. I enjoy it.  Please, let me know if you'd like to see more makeup reviews or fitness stuff on here.  I'd like to do both more often.

Til next time, peace out people!

So I stimulated the local economy today with my sister lol

Ok, so we went to our local Agnes and Dora rep's house and bought clothes we probably didn't need but bought them anyway lol.
Ok, I REALLY didn't need them.  At least my sister is a teacher and dresses nice to go to work.  I'm a nurse and wear scrubs everyday I go to work.  I do enjoy dressing nice when hubby and I go on our little trips to Des Moines.  And I'd like to start going to other places like hitting Kansas City up once in a while for a change of pace.

I started ordering these pants. No these are not my legs:

 Then when we got these, I picked up this dress:

 And this shirt.

And another one, but if you want to see it you can check out my Instagram page.
Barbells.and.Beauty

Still trying to lose weight only it doesn't want to be lost.  All I want to eat is ice cream cause its FREAKING HOT AS SHIT here.  OMG,  I'm over this heat.  I get puffy when it gets hot outside.  My rings don't fit right. My ankles are a little more swollen.  And I drink plenty of water.  Like a gallon a day.  Still puffy. UGH.

They are saying we'll get a mini break from the heat over the weekend and for a few days after.  Highs in the 80s, which I can handle.  96 degrees with heat indexes over 108 is just to hot.  And that's where we were today.

Is it early fall yet?

Tired of summer

Never thought I'd say that.   But I am.  I'm tired of summer.

This summer has been hot, for a much longer period of time that usual.  We had 90s in May.  In MAY.  Ok, once in a while we'll have a day maybe two, where it will hit 90, but that's all.  This year, it was a whole bunch of days.  Then more in June, then more so far in July.   I'm over it.  I like 80s.  Warm enough to wear shorts, but not so hot you think you're gonna melt.  Cause here in Iowa we often have high humidity.  All the corn we grow pumps out humidity like crazy.  So it will be 95 with a heat index over 105.  UGH.  So you just walk around outside damp cause the sweat doesn't evaporate.  It just stays on there.  UGH!

I'm ready for leggings, boots, etc.  I'm just tired of being hot, and tired of walking around half wet outside. 

I'm also tired of being fat.  I just can't seem to get it together enough to get this weight off.  I've lost 20lbs but sadly its been the same 5lbs over and over again.   This is so depressing.  I mean, I just can't seem to get my shit together, and get this weight off.   I'll do great for a couple days, then fair for another day or two, then it all falls apart.  I'll skip a couple workouts, I'll eat a bunch of crap.  And the weight stays the same. 

I don't know what it is about my level of dedication, but it is kind of sucky right now.  I mean I want to get into better shape, I want to get this belly fat off. But apparently I don't based on my actions.  There is something stopping me from obtaining my goals. 

So I did something.  I ordered this book:

I hope I get some tips out of this that will help me out cause I sure need it. 

Down almost 3lbs!

I know how awesome!  A few friends at work, and a few of their family members, have joined me in a summer challenge.  We're gonna see who can lose the biggest percentage of our body weight.  And I'm down almost 3lbs.  Ok, so that's a very small number, but I've been sloooowly gaining here so to have any weight loss at all, is HUGE for me!  So don't go harshing my joy!

I've gotten some new makeup (big shock right) here lately.  I think after this I'm going to slow up again.  I've managed to hit pan on a couple things and I got so excited that I managed to hit pan!  I'd like to do that on a couple other things before the year is over.  I can do it, I know I can.

Here is one thing I've gotten already: 

The BH Cosmetics Aurora Lights palette.  I can't wait to dig into this.  This time of year I'm either "I WANT COLOR" or I want very light taupe/brown you can barely see.  This will obviously be for the I want color days lol.

I ordered this one too:

Urban Decay's Born to Run.  It won't get here until Tue or Wed. and the wait is killing me lol.

I'm starting to schedule my workouts in my day planner.  I need to be dedicated to my workouts. Period.  I've been skipping workouts and its not a good thing.  I won't get fit skipping workouts.  And I want to get fit.

So I hope to be blogging in another couple weeks and being able to say I'm down 5lbs!  That's my goal.   So I need to set steps to use to reach that goal! 

Has it really been 2 months?

WOW!  I could have sworn it was less than that since I last blogged.

Oh well.  Guess I've not had much to say.  Oh I know I had one time I typed out a partial blog and then deleted it cause it was just a bunch of whining when I'd had a bad day.   

Things are weird here in southwest Iowa.  We are under a boil order for water.  Guess some filter broke at the main water processing plant and God knows when they will get it replaced.  So now we are to boil the water or drink bottled.  What an ass pain.  And even are suppose to even wash the dishes in boiled water cause dishwashers don't get hot enough for long enough.  Screw that.  I'l take my chances.  I'll drink bottled and boiled water, but I'm not boiling water, waiting for it to cool, then washing dishes by hand in it.   Nope.

So I got this the other day.

                                                                                                                                               

Its a day planner.  Wonder Woman lol.  I've loved Wonder Woman since I was a girl watching the tv show.  I'm turning it into a fitness planner.  Gonna plan out workouts, track my daily totals for macros/calories, weight, steps,  and maybe even do some meal planning.   

I've also joined 2 challenges. One is a month long challenge with ladies from work.  Just a "lets get fit" thing.  We each paid $5 and we'll see how much percentage of weight we can lose, winner gets the pot.  I'm not really expecting to win but its great to have the ladies with me

The other is a 60 day accountability group where you check in daily.  Again, just something to help me keep at it if I have to check in.  2 days done, 58 left to go lol.

Off to read up the Sunday School lesson I'm doing at the nursing home tomorrow.  Should at least be able to say all the names right.  Why can't people in the Bible have names like "Bob" or "Billy"  No its like Zephaniah lol  Should get to reading.

Until next time