SHERLOCK IS HOME!!!

And I'm just a little bit excited. Ok, maybe a whole BUNCH excited.

Yes, I'm in my scrubs.  He came home on Fri when I was at work, of course. So I didn't get to see him until Sat morning about 12 hours after he got home.  Little devil.  He's thinner than he was, but overall seems pretty healthy.

And he seems very happy to be home.

And he's stayed as far away from doors going outside as he can lol.

I'm trying to figure out my calories and macros to eat to get rid of some of this fat I carry around my waist. Its fucking HARD!  I don't want to cut back much,  as I have a big appetite and to be quite honest, I like eating and get rather bitchy when I cut back to much.   But sadly I think I need to cut my carbs back some to get rid of the belly fat.  Time to get more bacon I guess.  More bacon and eggs for breakfast and less cereal. 

Workouts have been ok.  I need to train more days a week, but they are killers when I do manage to hit my home gym.  If you are interested in my home gym, here's a link:
My Home Gym

Not much else to say.  Trying to recover from my shit storm of a weekend at work.  The flu is hitting big time, and its not fun.  Thankfully, I have a few days/nights off to recover.

I can't believe I bought that! FAINTS

So, after weeks of considering, looking at, wishing for, and dreaming about, I finally got this.

This is the Viseart Grande Pro Volume 1 palette.  It cost, wait for it, $175.  Yes, I mean $175.  And I ordered it.  No I'm not crazy.  Ok, I am, but not really.  I ordered it from Beautylish, and they have a flexable payment plan so I can pay for it in 3 payments.

Now, I love LOVE Viseart. I've got 2 12color palettes from them, and I love them. They are quite frankly the best eye shadows I've got. Blend well, last 14+ hours look amazing. And the 12 color ones were $80.  So I got 24 colors for $160.  So 30 colors at $175 is a "steal" lol.

Besides, this sets of my Slow to No Buying Challenge I'm going to do for 6 weeks.  Until Feb 28, I'm going to greatly reduce the amount of makeup I'm going to buy.  I've got more than enough, and the stuff I've seen that's coming out soon, it doesn't inspire me at all.   It all looks the same or its from brands that are very inconsistent in their products. Either they are nice, or crappy. 

So, I'm going to put more money in savings, and maybe buy a new pair of shoes, or a nice outfit.   And use up the makeup that I already have.

I'm also going to start a Pan Project for some of my makeup.  Pan projects are where you use makeup enough that you either use it up, you hit the pan in powder like eye shadows or blushes, or you decide you just don't like it and declutter it.  I'm going to be deciding which products to hit pan on for 2018 and film a video on the products I have decided to use up.

Been trying to workout.  This week sucked cause well, I lost Sherlock and I've not seen him since Tue. Its Sat now. I don't think I'll ever see him again.   In my happy place, in my happy thoughts, I want to think cause he's so friendly, someone took him in, and are now keeping him warm and happy.  I don't want to think the other thoughts.  Nope, I've cried enough, thank you very much.

One of my kitties is lost, and its all my fault

My kitty Sherlock got outside yesterday.  I'm 99% sure its cause I didn't quite get the kitchen door all the way latched and so it blew open, and out he went.  We can't find him. Its been more than 24 hours now, getting closer to 36, and I'm devastated.  He was my special kitty.  I found him living outside as a very young kitten, and got him inside. In a couple weeks had a very nasty ear infection that darn near killed him.  I mean I was giving him water and tuna juice for a couple days to keep him alive until the antibiotics kicked in.  Since then he walks with a tilted head I think as a result from damage from that ear infection.  And now he's lost, outside, probably dead by now, but if he's still alive, he's scared and hungry and I can't find him to help him.

I've been alternating between trying not to cry cause I'm around people, or sobbing like a toddler who lost their teddy bear. I was walking around outside about an hour ago, sobbing, while putting the cat food in the dish we feed the cats in over and over hoping he'd hear it and maybe come to get food.  He didn't.  So I sobbed even harder as I went back in the house.

The weather is going to turn to crap tomorrow, so if he's not already dead, which is a good possibility, thanks to morons who think they need to drive 70mph on the highway we live on, or the fact we have fields around out house and raccoons and coyotes think cats are things to kill, he will freeze to death.

I hate thinking he might have been killed by a wild animal, scared panicked cause I couldn't get that fucking door shut. My poor kitty. I miss him. I miss him so much.  He would sit and look out our kitchen window with me in the mornings, or sit on the deep freeze and paw at us as we walked by so we would pet him.  He also loved to go into my gym with me.  He'd sometimes sneak in little scamp.

Here he is in the dog kennel.

Here he is helping me play video games.

I'm going to miss my Sherlock.  Please come back

So I need to get my crap together!

The holidays are over, and I need to get my crap together.  I've been slacking way to much.  Been buying way to much.  Been sitting way to much.  I need to get my shit up, moving and back saving money.  Or more money. 

I've decided to take up using a bullet journal.  I've ordered a nice looking journal and I'm hoping to get started in the next few days.  I've got a simple day planner, but I mainly use it to keep track of my workouts, and other fitness stuff, which is what I wanted it for.  But I want something to have to keep track of everything else.  Bills, stuff I want to do, videos I want to film.  That sort of thing.  And I think a bullet journal will be a good way to keep track of my life.  Easy, I can make it what I want it to be, and well, use stickers and all the pretty pens etc to make it mine. 

I did manage to do a good thing today.  I got my dressing room cleaned out.  Got rid of all the boxes, extra wrapping paper, stuff and it looks so much nicer.  I also decluttered a few makeup items I don't want anymore.  I need to get rid of even more, but well, its hard to get rid of makeup lol. At least for me it is. 

I've also decided to do a second "Wise Buying Challenge" for makeup.  I do have 1-2 things I want, but really, I don't need any new makeup for a while. I need to use what I've got and trust me, I've got A LOT!  And I've got a few new foundations I still need to review, and some I want to do a second opinion on, so I've got plenty to keep me busy.

I'm trying to get my YouTube channels to grow. I've now got two.  One that's beauty focused, the original Barbells and Beauty, and one that's fitness focused, Rhonda Gets Fit.   I think if I have a journal, where I schedule when to film my videos, it will be a good thing.  Might help me grow my channels just getting videos out there.  Can't hurt, now can it.

Been colder that SHIT here the last several days.  Like today, we were all happy it stayed above zero, as in Fahrenheit almost all day!  That's bad. I'm ready for spring.  Only a few more days and maybe it will get and stay warmer.  I can only hope.   I'm not a fan of winter, snow or cold weather.  My ancestors were not smart enough to go to a place with warm weather for a longer period during the year, and I'm not any smarter I guess.

So I'm still watching bullet journal YouTube videos, and trying to get in mind how I want to set mine up.  Mine will be very me I think lol.

I am NOT a day shifter!

Nope, I am not.  Who thinks getting up at 4am is a good thing? WTF people.   4am is a great time to go to bed and go to  sleep. It is not a time to get out of bed. Period.

I just got done with 3 long day shifts.  It was training, but man, I hated it.  I was so much more tired doing those day shifts than I am doing my night shifts.    I just can't seem to get to bed early enough, sleep long enough, or well enough.  I wake up, thinking I'm oversleeping, only to find its not even midnight.  Then try to go back to sleep for 20 min, only to do the whole thing in an hour. UGH!

I'll get back to my night shifts on Christmas night.  Until then, I have 4 days/nights off.  Time to clean the house, and get that last couple things for Christmas picked up.   And I might look at some new shoes.  Been a while since I bought non-work shoes.  Maybe a nice pair of heels or a new pair (or two) of boots.

Gonna make a different YouTube Channel

I had a channel long ago, before I started my Barbells and Beauty channel.  I had a whole 3 videos on it.  One from a mission trip to South Africa, and a couple from a lady who made bad workout dvds, but I owned a few of the dvds and posted a couple clips after she went out of business.  Mainly for people to see how bad her workout form was, meaning how badly she did the moves she was trying to teach.

Anyway, I am going to revive that account, and start filming my fitness journey.  Its something I think I need to do.   I need to get it out there for more people to see.  To help keep me accountable.

Right now I have all of 3 subscribers lol.  So I've got a ways to go.  Quite a way to go.

I wanted to split my beauty portion with the fitness/weight loss journey.  While I think the two are connected, most people either want to watch fitness stuff, or beauty stuff, and no the two of them together. 

So now I need to see if I can build this channel up some. If you are interested in it here it is
Rhonda Gets Fit

Hurrah for me! Saving money!!

So, I've managed to put a couple hundred bucks into my small savings account.

I've got the big one, the one where we pull money out for emergencies, regular stuff, that sort of thing. Then this  last summer, I started one in a different bank, so it will be harder to access the money, for the things I want to buy for the house, or just myself. 

Right now, I am saving up for a fancy woo woo refrigerator.  So I'm gonna need to save up some bucks cause what I'm looking at will cost a little more than $2000. But my "DREAM FRIDGE " is more like $2800 EEK!  I've got a ways to go.  But hey, a couple hundred here and a couple hundred there, it will add up and maybe by this spring, I'll have the refrigerator I really want.

Then I can start saving up for a new laptop.  Mine is gonna be 4 years old, and its starting to show its age a little bit.  Between the crack that its getting in the base, and the fact I'm running out of storage, and its slowing down some, I just need/want a new laptop.  Besides, there might be new games I want to play and this one might not have the space, or ability to, so that can't be.

Been slacking off BIG TIME on my fitness/weight loss goals.  I need to get this shit together or I'll be fat forever.  

I'm not sure why I've been slacking.  I think the time of year, you know, almost no sunshine, the change in weather,  cause we literally went from it being 60 degrees to 25 degrees in 24 hours.  UGH. Then it snowed. Ok so it didn't stick, but still. It snowed. UGH!

I just need to get back in the game, cause I don't want to be a chunk the rest of my life.  I have GOALS!  I just need to make plans for those goals.

Maybe I need to start a new You Tube channel just for my weight loss goals. Might not be a bad thing. having a channel just for my fitness and weight loss.  What do you thing. Anyone???